i gotta tell ya, the past week really hasn't been going well for me. since the "panic attack" (as someone called it) last week during school, i just have been off it. my mood isn't the best, and i can't seem to do anything. i had two small panic attacks today. one around 1 a.m., and the second one in algebra, which is my last period. i can't seem to read, write, or even do anything. i don't like this, but it can't be helped, i'm stuck doing nothing. i hardly sing to myself anymore. i'm just that depressed right now. i can hardly listen to a single imagine dragons song right now, which, is practically unheard of considering i listen to them every single day, well, most days. some days i don't even listen to music, and others i listen to one song only. like monumental by aviators. all day sunday i made a single update, mainly becuase the internet was messy and i couldn't do anything, but i mainly made that update for a lot more personal reasons than any other. to be honest i don't think i'll ever publish that update. i only have two spaces left for this journal, then i'm going to have to go the the third. this one spanded a little over a year, while for the first one was half a year. i'm planning on having the last two updates to be on christmas and new years, but that is just a plan, i can't nesasarily follow it to heart. other than that i don't have anything to say, so i guess i'll see you later...i suppose.
oh, almost forgot, don't worry about my book, i had to take it down due to unreadability. i''m currently working on it so it is readable. at latest the whole thing will come out on christmas. and to think, the book's original plan was a birthday present to Jannessa. yet, it failed that becuase of me...i'm just some jerk...aren't i?
