i just can't...i can't stand being...alone...trully alone again...i can't stand being...being alone for...for another day...i can't...i just can't...i hate it...i hate it...being alone...it feels as if...as if no one likes me...as if everyone want's me gone...and making these...these updates everyday...doesn't help...it makes it worse...it only makes it worse...and how i treat...treat myself makes it worse...i can't be alone...i just can't...i...it hurts...like a blade through the wrist...through the heart...it hurts...like a poison that kills...kills slowly...and painfully...it hurts...everyone around me has...has someone to talk to...james has fox...who calls him at least...least every other day...bruce has brian...who hangs he...he hangs out with...ashley has her group of friends...mah and dad have their friends...megan has her's...and jannessa has her friends...while...while i have...no one...it hurts...i can't stop crying...no one...i want to kill myself...i want this...pain to go away...i seriously want to die...i just want the pain to go away...as fast as possible...and death seems to be the only answer...i just want ot die...i don't want ot be alone...not for a day longer...i want to die...
