It's been around 2 or 3 weeks that Mattheo, Tom and I haven't talked to each other. I feel awful. I don't know what to do and what I shouldn't do. I feel responsible that Tom and I aren't together and that they argued. I think they argued. I'm not sure tho. Theodore has tried multiple times to tell me to talk with them but I'm not listening to him. He tried to help and I thank him but I just can't do it at the moment. Parkinson and I have fight a lot of times but I can't calm. I can't forget what she did. Draco distanced himself from me. Just like everybody else. Now. Now that I need a bit understand, now everybody left me. I have no idea what I should do.
(I did a huge prologue. Whatever. Continue)
Now it's 7 o'clock. I change into my Slytherin robe and get out. I see Tom. He stares at me for a few seconds. We just stare at each other. I take my books, my wand and rush out of there. I go at the class and wait for a few minutes before students start coming inside. DADA first hours. Tom, Mattheo and Theodore are in my team. Well were. The last weeks I'm alone. It really sucks but I don't say anything. They want it like that.
The lesson starts. The boys are staring at me. It makes me feel awful. I start thinking everything again and again and again. I feel like I'm the problem right now. Like I did something awful even if I didn't. Just because of that Pansy girl that is still paying, I destroyed my mental health. I really did destroy everything. I can't stand up. I take my books and wand and run outside. Lastly I heard Snape's voice calling me.
"Alarie?".
I ignore him and run out of there. I run at the Astronomy Tower. I sit down there and just stare at the view. I can't take it. It's a lot for me. I destroyed all of my friendships that I had for a mistake that wasn't even mine. How stupid of me. Pansy was responsible. I blamed Tom at first. He wasn't angry at me for thinking like that. I was angry with myself that I thought that he could cheat on me with her.
Everything went back at the old days. Now you will ask what I mean. I mean that I'm alone for once again. Without friends, without company, sitting alone, laughing alone- ... Laughing. I was laughing. I am not anymore. It hurts to watch everybody so happy around here while I'm a shit like that.
Of course I am not angry at any of them. They have their lives and I have mine. Like the first years. Since that night that I overheard Mattheo's and Tom's conversation. The night that everything started. The night that I should be more careful than I was. The night that ... I got destroyed. After that night everything bad happened. I start killing people around here and there without care. I killed my own father, Voldemort, a few kids. Dumbledore. I learned who I really am and destroyed my mental health.
I hate to admit it but my father was right. He told me that I'll become like that. A dirty girl with no life that will bring pain on the world. I did it. I brought pain to the people that I once loved and called mine. The people that I thought were my friends but now they pulled me away because I pulled away Tom and Mattheo.
Pansy got whatever she wanted. She destroyed me. I hate to admit but she won. Everybody are away from me. Even Draco. At least at first I had Draco but now? Now I have no one for once again. I don't deserve that. I really don't.
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Triangle Problem
FanfictionYn Yln. 6th year at Hogwarts. Slytherin girl. Abused by her parents. One of the best students but never better than Tom Riddle and Mattheo Riddle. The brothers of chaos. Never get along with them. Never find them attractive. Just stubborn and danger...