I welcome you all back to the abyss that is my demented mind. Also wolf Faunus you know the drill.
Forewarning graphic scenes and mentions of self harm, depression, and suicide.
I was the luckiest guy in the world not only did I have great friends but I had an amazing girlfriend... Even though she has been acting really distant from me like she's embarrassed... But that can't be right? She wouldn't be embarrassed of me...
(Y/n): "Well... She could be..." I muttered to myself lifting my shirt up revealing all the scars on my stomach and chest. I put my shirt down laying in my bed feeling depressed again. I curled up into a ball falling asleep with a tear dripping down my face.
When I woke up in the morning I stretched out before heading for my morning run. But I stopped when I saw under the tree me and Blake met under she had one leg raised hugging the tree while Sun was ramming his cock into her. I saw they and quickly continued along my run not looking back refusing to believe what I saw. I returned to my room grabbing the letter opener I had and stabbed my arm slowly sliding it down. I cried in pain as blood gushed out of the long cut as I fell over on my knees pulling out the blood drenched letter opener before passing out.
When I was unconscious I could see anything but Blake and Sun fucking. I heard her moaning out his name praising him for everything. And cursing me for every talking to her. As I forced to watch them fuck and orgasm and fuck again then orgasm and repeat. I was in tears watching this heart wrenching action repeated over and over again. I cried and screamed my hands restrained as I wanted it to stop, I wanted everything to stop, I wanted the pain to stop, I wanted my life to stop. I cried out sitting up shouting in terror tears streaming down my face as doctors were pushing me back down. I struggled thrashing around in tears wanting to be let go.
Doctor: "Get the anesthesia now he is resisting and if we don't close the wound he will bleed out!" He shouted at one of the nurses as they rushed over placing the mask over my mouth. They started stroking my hair trying to calm me down as I cried out more.
(Y/n): "LET ME BLEED I DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE!!! L-Let me blee..." I said before being knocked unconscious by the medicine. But this time in my dream I saw my funeral. But no one showed up not even my parents. I felt so alone I felt no one really cared about me. I cried quietly wishing someone would help me, save me from this nightmare, or end my miserable existence. I cried and cried and cried replaying that moment in the morning again and again. I woke up in my bed looking around shaking violently. When I looked at my arm I saw stitches going from my shoulder down to my wrist. The beginning of the cut was the deepest but as the cut traveled down it wasn't as deep. But I vowed right there I would waste away since no one really cared about me. So first thing I did was grab my letter opener and slice my other arm draining my blood. I laid down as the blood soaked my bed I didn't cry anymore I didn't even speak. I was officially a broken wolf. When I left my dorm I bandaged my arm and changed my shirt heading out to meet everyone. They all waved hi to me with smiles but I just offered a half hearted wave. This must of worried them as Blake came up to me kissing my cheek hugging me. I still smelt Suns fucking monkey odor on her. I just remained emotionless void of life as I sat down for breakfast. I didnt touch a single piece of food or drink anything. They tried feeding me with a spoon, forcing it down, they tried everything but I refused I didn't eat anything right there. And throughout the entire day I was dead silent, my eyes no emotion, my body no sign of life other than the subtle rise and fall of my chest as I breathed. Around the end of the day Blake pulled me aside from everyone kissing me on the lips. I tasted monkey saliva and knew she was just with him.
Blake: "Baby come on I'm worried sick about you you aren't talking, your (e/c) eyes have lost their brilliant shine, you haven't eaten a thing all day or drink. Please stop hurting yourself your the world to me if I lost you I don't know what I do." She said as I looked away knowing she move right onto Sun. I turned around and walked away from her as she kept grabbing me trying to get me to open up but I refused. I left her alone as she was crying my name begging me to come back but I knew. I knew Sun was with her cause I fucking smelt him waiting for her around the corner. And from what I smelt he was ready to fuck which makes me even more upset. I bumped into Pyrrha and just stepped aside gesturing for her to go as she stood there. She made me look at her as I saw worry all over her face. I felt like someone needed to know so I grabbed her hand and took her to the library grabbing a piece of paper and pen. I scribbled down everything I wanted her to know handing it to her.
Pyrrha: "...I have refused to live anymore I don't care about my life or anyone else. I've given up on everything. I will never talk, eat, drink, or form emotions again.... If you want to thank anyone you thank Blake the fucking cheating whore who welcomed that monkey fucker Sun in between her legs. She didn't talk to me, she distracted herself, she isolated me from her, and she fucked him in the open. So thank those two that I'm done with my miserable existence of a life. Nothing matters no one will ever love me I'm just gonna waste away alone forever.... (Y/n)... I wish I could fix this or something..." She said as I got up leaving I didnt want pity I wanted her to know what happened. I bumped into Cardin who picked me up shaking me doing his usual intimidation tactics. But you can't scare the dead so he shook me harder and harder. I didnt flinch or growl or nothing I just hung there limp waiting for him to let me down. But he started slamming me against the wall as again no emotion crossed my face. He started getting really irritated and started beating me but still nothing no matter how much blood escaped my mouth I didn't show anything. He and his lackeys kicked me and punched as much as they wanted till the were exhausted. I stood up not bothering to clean the blood off my face or anything I just walked along blood covering half my face and running down my arm. But I didn't even notice I just wanted to get to my dorm and cut myself again. Halfway there I had to stop and hide around a corner seeing Sun and Blake. I lifted an ear up listening to what they were saying.
Sun: "I don't feel right doing this now..."
Blake: "Oh ok you felt fine when we made out and fucked but now that we are taking about us you chicken out?"
Sun: "No it's (Y/n) from what you say it sounds like he is trying to kill himself yet your here with me again..."
Blake: "He isn't talking... He won't say a word I doubt he even cares about me anymore."
Sun: "Do you have proof of this Blake? I mean... He's a wolf he can smell us when we want to fuck and probably can taste my spit from us kissing..."
Blake: "No I doubt he notices a difference why are you talking about this?"
Sun: "Cause he's walking right behind you..." He said as he side stepped blocking my path. I just tried going around him but he wouldn't let me. I looked at him dead in the eyes as he saw my blood soaked face. "WHAT HAPPENED?!?" He shouted as I looked away refusing to look at him. Blake grabbed my should as I stared at her blood dripping down my face and arm forming a puddle. The look on her face could only describe that of someone watching the dead rise. I pushed my way past them as they chased me down trying to stop me but when I got to my dorm I slammed the door on their faces. They pounded on my door demanding I let them in but I refused I just grabbed my letter opener and slit my wrists again before laying bed staining my sheets red.
Time skip 4 days later
I was a waste of space and wasting away. I hadn't touched a single piece of food at all no matter how much they tried to coax me into eating it didn't work. Blake tried offering kisses and hugs but didn't work, Ruby cookies no go, Yang kisses and sex absolutely not, no body could make me eat unless they planned to kill me. I stared blankly at the table as everyone tried everything they could think of to try and make me talk. But nothing they were trying to make a puppet talk without pulling the strings. Blake at that time said we were breaking up and I showed no sign. She said she was getting with Sun still no reaction. But when she said she was going to fuck Sun they all gasped as a single tear rolled down my cheek.
Pyrrha: "I think its time I talked... I know why he's like this..."
Blake: "Why is he I'm worried sick."
Pyrrha: "He can't Sun fucking you the morning when this all started. Your to blame Blake he refuses to sustain his life anymore. He is broken cause you hurt him deeply why did you have to do that?"
Blake: "..."
Pyrrha: "I have learned though something else he isn't just doing this... (Y/n) right arm out..." She said as I slowly lifted my arm as she got up walking our to me. Rolling up my sleeve revealing the multitude of cuts I had spanning up my entire arm. No one said a thing as she stroked my hair softly. "Right arm down left arm up." She said as I lowered my right and raised my left. She rolled back the sleeve revealing the foot long scar from my shoulder to my wrist and subsequent cuts in between. Again nothing was said as she kissed my head softly as I felt tears hitting my head. "Left arm down pull shirt up to neck." She said as that's what I did and this time everyone gasped seeing the paragraph I've carved into my chest that was still spewing a little blood. She just grabbed a napkin and wiped up the blood for me. "I know all this cause I've been taking care of him the best of my abilities after classes.... Shirt down" she said as I lowered my shirt staring at the bloodied napkin before me. Then Blake made me look at me in tears.
Blake: "I'm sorry baby I'm sorry I am truly sorry I didnt mean to hurt you. Our heat cycles came and we could control ourselves I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you I really didn't please stop this please." She said flat out crying and clinging to me as still no change in my emotions... Dead. I got up dragging Blake along since she wouldn't let go crying. I heard Pyrrha following me talking to me softly like usual. I really only responded to her since she seemed like she actually loved me. But I knew she was just doing it out of pity so paid it no real attention. When we arrived back at my room I heard Blake gasp as Pyrrha sighed.
Blake: "H...His rooms stained in blood everywhere..."
Pyrrha: "Indeed I have to sleep in here with him to try and limit his blood lose"
Blake: "Wait why do you get to im his girlfriend I should be the one."
Pyrrha: "But you just... Fine let's have him decide (Y/n) choose who you want to take care of you." She said as I stood still staring at the ground. She let out a small sigh. "You have to choose between me and Blake now choose." She said as I mindlessly walked forward repeatedly walked into my dresser. "Your letter opener doesn't count as me. It's between Pyrrha Nikos and Blake Belladonna who would you rather treat you?" She said as I turned walking back to original spot turning to Pyrrha softly bumping into her as she wrapped her arms around me causing me to stop. She kissed my head as I heard Blake storm off I looked up at Pyrrha and smiled a little as she was shocked by this.
(Y/n): "Three...days... dehydration..." I mumbled out before sitting on my bed blankly staring blankly at her as she was shocked.
Pyrrha: "Do... Do you want me to... Make you happy before than?" She asked as nodded slowly. She grabbed my pen and paper as I scribbled down what I wanted from her and what I wanted to say. When I handed it to her I watched her expression change from that of happiness to embarrassment. I tilted my head staring blankly as she was bright red.
Pyrrha: "I have three days to live before dehydration claims my life anf I want to spend those days with you. Cause you've been taking such good care of me I won't kill myself... Only if you can bring a smile and laughter to my face or just any happy emotions... Cause I think if I wasn't so broken I might have fallen in love with you... Well (Y/n) I've... Ive been in love with you for a while and I don't want you to go. I want to be your happiness, the reason you smile, what you think about before you sleep and after you rise. Damnitt you can't just tell me you love me and then say I have three days to make you happy. It's not fair its not fair!!" She cried out tearing up as I watched these tears fall I saw a reflection of myself. So I reached up and wiped her tears cracking a very small smile. She kissed me on the lips softly as I weakly returned the kiss.
Time skip 3 days later
She tried her hardest to make me laugh but nothing worked. So here I was on my death bad a waste of space, a waster of skin yet this girl still loved me. I laid my head on her shoulder as she cried stroking my hair gently.
Pyrrha: "I love you so much (Y/n)" she said as I scribbled on my paper. "I love you too Pyrrha are you sure about this? Yes my love I am... If I cant be with you in life I will be with you in death." She said as I scribbled more stuff down. "But your wasting your life and wasting your love on someone who wasted your love, wasted their lives, and was a waste of skin... Well I don't care if that bitch didn't hurt I feel we would be out on a date right now seeing the movies so... One last kiss before we go?" She asked as I nodded slightly as she hugged me tightly in tears before softly planting a kiss on my lips as I barely returned it feeling so weak. She held me and got the metal boxes for us to stand on as she tied the ropes to the rafters. I stared at her blankly as she tightened the noose around my neck and hers. I looked at her smiling softly with the last of my strength.
(Y/n): "I......Lo......ve.......you......" I mumbled out as she teared up smiling softly.
Pyrrha: "And I love you let us be together in death..." She said in tears holding my hand and having her other using her semblance to move the crates from beneath our feet. We didn't fight back we both looked at each other struggling to breath as tears rolled down our faces with smiles. Soon everything went black and limp but I knew one thing my hands still felt the warmth of hers as our fingers remained intertwined as we hanged together happy at last.
Not gonna lie I'm crying a little right now... Well there we go for those of you who want dark chapters remember this is but one of many many outcomes now enjoy... ;~;