SNL 2020

Open Communication Pt2

It took us half an hour to calm me down. Qing got water from the personal fridge in our room and he puts an arm around my shoulder as I drink slowly. Our sides touching, Qing letting me know that he is with me and that I am not alone in this.

Qing: (taking the water tumbler from me) Was this how you felt when I proposed to you?

Me: (nodding hesitantly) Yes. But double it...

Qing: (pained look on his eyes) Fuck. No wonder you ran away.

Me: (wincing) I have never felt like that before. It's more than nerves, I have been nervous before but that time...I ran because I think I will pass out in front of you after I vomitted. I...it was scary.

Qing: (nodding) Do you want to see a doctor for that? Why did you suddenly develop panic attacks? I think it's my fault.

Me: (eyes widening in surprise) What?! Stop. Stop that...

Qing: What? It's my fault. The pressure I applied on you...

Me: Am I still a man...if I am like this? Crumbling under the slightest pressure...

Qing: Enormous pressure. You said you thought about what this engagement will mean to our families. (groaning) Fuck! It's because you have no idea that our parents know and you think they will pile down on us.

Me: I am just...I am not ready for that.

Qing: I know. I think I understand it now.

Me: No. Don't understand me. Don't. I still left you behind in that meadow. That's on me. I should have just vomit and swoon in front of you. That would have been less cruel.

Qing: (pulling me close) Nah. Vomitting and swooning...nope. I would think my proposal killed you if that's what happened.

I sighed as I leaned my head on his shoulder.

Me: Why am I like this?

Qing: (patting my shoulder) I don't know. We can talk to an expert if you want. All I know is that I still love you.

Me: (moaning) You need your head check too. Something is wrong with you for enduring all of these by being with me.

Qing: (chuckling) Maybe.

I got annoyed at his amusement so I pulled away from him before punching Qing's bicep. He flinched and held the part of him that I punched.

Qing: Ah! What's that for?

Me: For lying, obviously. And for confessing. I mean, you should have stuck with lying to me. What happened to rule number one: Never get caught. What happened to rule number two: If caught, never confess.

(Goodness, men have weird bro rules)

True. Men, as a specie, are weird creatures. We are weird. Why women keeps on dating men, I don't know. Tsk tsk...

Qing: (lips twisting in a pout) You are the one sprouting about open communication and stuff.

Me: And you decided to get on with my crazies now? Where were this side of you when I was ready to gush nonstop about our new fridge?

Qing: (chuckling again) There are just certain crazies you have that I am willing to be on board with. Gushing about the new fridge didn't made the cut, Love.

I huffed and moved away from him. Then together, we sighed.

Me: (worried again) What do you think our families are thinking right now? (looking at Qing) You talked to my mother earlier. What did you tell her?