SNL 2020

Goodbye 2020

Today is the anniversary of Qing's first failed proposal to me. We spent our Christmas with my family in Heilongjiang but quickly get on the plane the next day. So today, we are waking up in Beijing.

And Qing is staying in bed and in a broody mood. So I joined him there.

Me: Do you really have to whisk me away from the place where you proposed to me?

Qing: Yes. Before I lose my head reminiscin' about the time you left me on that meadow.

Me: I thought we have gone past that. I thought you are okay now.

Qing: Yes. I have resolved myself to forgiving you for rejecting my first proposal but that day will always give me trauma.

Me: Don't be dramatic. Trauma? Tsk...

Qing: (eyes narrowing at me) I should've sued you for emotional and mental damage.

Me: (incredulous) I developed panic attacks because of your proposal. If anyone should sue anyone, it should be me suing you.

Qing: Your panic attacks were born because you have a weird and neurotic brain.

Me: (gasping) Oh! You take that back! Wang Qing!

Qing reached for me. He hugged me tight.

Qing: Sorry. Yes, that was uncalled for.

Me: That was mean. I know my brain is faulty. You don't have to remind me everytime.

Qing: (scowling) Hey! Your brain is not faulty. Don't say that.

I pouted at him. Qing winced at me.

Qing: I'm sorry, Love.

Me: My feelings were hurt.

Qing: (trying not to smile) Were they? Sorry. (nuzzling my neck) What can I do to make you feel better?

Me: Buy me sweet treats!

Qing: No. You had enough gorging on sweet deserts from the Christmas feast your parents prepared for us. That should last you for a week.

True. Mama and I baked cookies and made peach cobblers for Christmas and I ate my fair share of desert. Heck, I even took a portion of Qing's desert.

Me: (touching Qing's face) Stop being mad about what happened last year. I still got engaged with you. (showing him my engagement ring) Look?

Qing: (sighing) True. I just...I cannot help being back on that place.

I understand him. Qing was badly hurt when I rejected him and of course, that day will be memorable to him.

Then an idea struck me.

Me: Should I propose to you? And then you can reject me too.

Qing: What?

Me: (liking the idea as the seconds passed) Look, I will prepare a proposal and you can reject me too. We will be even.

Qing: How? When you are already anticipating my refusal to your proposal. Dayu ah, what makes your rejection hurtful was the fact that I never even thought you will reject me.

Me: (seeing his point) Oh. Well...what can I do to make you feel better today?

I want to make Qing feel better today. The one year anniversary of the day he knelt on a snowy meadow to propose to me and seconds after that, I rejected and left him there.

Ouch! Everytime I think about it, I hurt for Qing. Imagine what he is feeling everytime he was reminded of that moment. No wonder he is being broody.