The Vampire Diaries Imagines 2

16 » elijah

THIS IMAGINE COULD BE TRIGGERING SO PLEASE, IF YOU KNOW THAT IT COULD DRIVE YOU INTO SOMETHING MENTIONED IN THIS, DO NOT READ IT. I LOVE YOU GUYS, AND I REALLY WANT ONLY GOOD THINGS FOR YOU AND I HONESTLY HATE THE THOUGHT OF YOU HURTING YOURSELVES. PLEASE DON'T, IT COULD END BADLY, YOU ARE LOVED AND BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING. I LOVE YOU.

okay, now that that's written, just a quick note for you guys (: i was asked to do imagines about stuff like self-harming, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts and things like these because the truth is, there are many people who have to deal with some of them, so i just had to agree. i think it's a good idea, but like i already said, please don't read anything that could be triggering for you !! i love you all, so very much, you're the best readers ever and i don't want anything bad for you.

i also want to apologize in advance if any of the things i write about have some mistakes or incorrect facts or information or anything like that, please let me know if there is something i need to correct ! i try to google a lot if there's something i'm not sure about, but google isn't always right, nor the best option, but anyway... here's the imagine, please, READ WITH CAUTION ! (:

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Imagine harming yourself and after finding out about it, Elijah wants to help

"I'm okay."

God, if only you could say how many times you had told that to the people surrounding you, thinking their presence was enough to keep you happy. But you weren't sure if you could even count that far. And though you had said it millions of times, you almost never meant it. It was almost funny, really, but it managed to stay on the side of sad.

You did have a lot of people around you, but they were always too busy to notice the sadness in your eyes, or the way you kept wearing long-sleeved shirts and avoiding shorts and dresses, or how you were always missing that happy smile and bubbly laughter you knew you once had. How did you lose it?

It was quite simple, really. Feeling unsatisfied with your own life and your own body was enough to drive you to things you didn't think you would even dare to consider, and cross a line to a darker side - a side which you were sure had no exit. Often, too often, you found yourself standing in a bathroom, perhaps a local one or your own, where you took out your blade which was sadly almost always with you, and slid it across your skin, usually wrist, but you had done so many cuts you had already reached your arm. Sometimes you'd cut your thighs, and that was why you didn't wear shorts or skirts or anything that would give away even a peek of your skin.

Doing it, harming yourself, it made you feel somewhat better, for a few seconds maybe. Then you'd return to your own, sad self, until your hand would reach the blade again and repeat what you were used to do, for months now. You kind of hated the fact that you harmed yourself like that, but you were too addicted to stop and there was no one to help you, either. And you, you were too weak to get help by yourself. So you wounded yourself nearly each day, waiting for someone to find you and save you from yourself, but so far, it seemed like you were only allowed to fall deeper into darkness.

But you didn't know, that you were being watched over by someone very special. You could never have imagined that you'd spark the interest of an Original vampire, and still didn't, but you had in fact caught Elijah Mikaelson's attention and he was very deeply falling for you. He thought you looked beautiful, even with the fake, miserable smile painted on your lips and even with your eyes losing the happiness in them. And he had already decided to find out what was heaving down your heart, and do whatever it would take, to make you smile genuinely again, and help you if that was necessary.

Some could have called it creepy, since he was pretty much following you and looking at you whenever he spotted you, but he was worried. He was sincerely concerned, and fallen in love too, and he hated to see you break in front of all your friends who couldn't see you the way he did. He could sense that something, everything was wrong, and he didn't want you to do anything bad. He was a bit too late, though, because you were already cutting yourself, but he wasn't stupid, not at all.