A/n: explicit language in this one. sorry that it's not all that great and kind of sucks. please enjoy. okay, let's begin!
My boyfriend of four years, singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes and I were vacationing in Mexico. Since he had a break before he had to go on tour in a couple of months, and I was on break from school for a couple more weeks, he wanted to spend some alone time with me. He had proposed the idea of going down to a private beach so we could swim, relax, and just be in each other's company. Shawn wore gray swimming trunks and I wore a blue one piece bathing suit that Shawn had picked out for me. I put on shorts and a t-shirt over the bathing suit. I stepped out of the bathroom and walked over to Shawn, who had his back to me.
"Shawn? Are you ready to go?" I asked. He turned around and smiled at me before nodding.
"Yeah. Why are you wearing clothes over the bathing suit?" Shawn asked as he took my hand and led me out of the hotel room. We both had sunglasses and baseball caps on, hoping that we wouldn't be recognized while on our way to the beach. Shawn's touch made me feel safe and warm even though I felt electricity spark through me. He was carrying a bag in his other hand, and I assumed it held food or something but I couldn't see what was in it.
"Well I just don't want people seeing the stretch marks on my arms or the ones on my thighs. I'll take off the shirt and shorts when we get to the private beach." I promised. Shawn stopped walking, which caused me to stop walking. I gave him a look of confusion.
"My love, you are absolutely gorgeous, stretch marks or no stretch marks. I love your stretch marks. They make you who you are. Please don't be insecure honey, you're the most gorgeous girl in the world - hell, you're the most gorgeous girl in the whole damn universe!" Shawn said, spreading his arms out wide. I smiled and pulled Shawn in for a hug.
"Thank you honey. I love you so much." I said.
"You're welcome baby. I love you too, so, so, much." Shawn said. We then continued our walk to the beach. Once we got there, I took off my shorts and t-shirt. I laid out the towels, and when I stood up, I put my hands on my hips, admiring the view of the ocean. All of the sudden, I heard a click. Crap.
"Shawn?" I asked.
"Yes love?" He asked.
"Did you hear that camera click too?" I asked as I turned around to face him. Shawn smirked at me as he held up a camera.
"Yeah, I definitely heard it." Shawn said. I rolled my eyes.
"What are you even doing?" I asked with a giggle as I walked over to him.
"Taking pictures of my gorgeous future wife while we're on vacation." Shawn said as he took another picture of me. I blushed.
"Stop that! I don't want you to take any pictures of me!" I said with a giggle, but honestly, I was serious.
"Why not Y/n?" Shawn asked.
"Well I just don't like -" I said before Shawn cut me off.
"Don't you dare say that you don't like the way that you look because you looking like a fucking goddess, especially in this sunlight." Shawn said. I sighed before giving him a small smile, which he captured on camera. I turned back to the ocean and laid down on one of the towels. I had brought a book with me, so I cracked that open and started to read. Suddenly, a shirtless Shawn was next to me taking more pictures. I covered my face with the book.
"Oh my gosh Shawn, you're insane." I said as I lifted the book away from my face.
"Yeah I am, insanely in love with you." Shawn said, causing me to smile and blush. Without even looking, he snapped a picture of me smiling and blushing. I shook my head at him.
"You're such a goofball." I said as I reached my hand over and ruffled his luscious locks.
"Yeah, but I'm your goofball." Shawn said. I smiled and nodded.
"That you are honey. Hey, I have an idea for a picture!" I said excitedly. Shawn chuckled at my enthusiasm.
"And what would that idea be?" Shawn asked.
"Us kissing." I said. Shawn smiled and nodded. He set the camera on a timer and we started kissing until we were sure that the camera had taken the picture. We pulled away from our magical kiss and smiled at each other.
"I love you so fucking much. You're like a drug, I can't get enough of you." Shawn said.
"Now you know how I feel about you. I'm hooked on you." I said with a giggle. Shawn kissed me again. I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks, I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, and I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy. Shawn and I pulled away from the kiss and leaned our foreheads together.
"Your kisses are magical, my love." Shawn said. I blushed again and brought my hand to his face to rub his cheek with the pad of my thumb. He smiled and leaned into my touch as he closed his eyes.
"So are yours honey. Go sit on the towel and face me, okay?" Shawn said and asked. I gave him another look of confusion but he just smiled at me. I sat down on the towel and faced him just like he told me to. He grabbed the camera and sat down in front of me but a little bit away from me.
"No Shawn, no pictures." I protested. Shawn gave me a puppy dog look, his eyes pleading with me to let him take pictures of me. I rolled my eyes. "Fine." I said, giving in. Shawn knew that I couldn't say no to him when he gave me the puppy dog look. He smiled at me and thanked me.
"Alright my beautiful girl, smile at me." Shawn said. I blushed, put my hands in my lap, sat up straight and smiled at my amazing boyfriend. As he took pictures of me from different angles, telling me to pose in different ways, smiling at me the whole time, I thought of how lucky I was to have someone love me so much and think that I'm so beautiful that they want to take a whole bunch of pictures of me. I smiled at my loving boyfriend, and instead of looking into his camera lens like I had been, I looked at his beautifully handsome face and reached out for his jaw. Shawn took the camera away from his face and gave me a puzzled look.
"Come here my handsome man." I requested. Shawn scooted closer to me and put the camera down in front of him.
"What's up my love?" Shawn asked. I moved the camera farther away and crawled onto his lap. He sent me a warm smile and wrapped his arms around my waist, holding me in his secure and safe embrace. I rested my head on his shoulder and placed a couple of gentle kisses on his neck.
"I love you so much Shawn. I literally can't even put it into words how much I love you." I said, nuzzling my face farther into Shawn's neck and letting myself close my eyes. His body heat radiated off of him.
"I love you too Y/n. So much that I can't even put my love for you into words either." Shawn said. I lifted my head up and kissed his cheek.
"Did you meant what you said earlier?" I asked Shawn. He tilted his head to the side in confusion.
"What did I say?" Shawn asked.
"You called me your future wife. Did you really mean that?" I said and asked. Shawn gave me a soft and warm smile as he put his hand to my cheek and rubbed it with the pad of his thumb, just like I had done to him earlier, and, just like he had done to me earlier, I leaned into his warm touch and closed my eyes as I smiled at the feeling. I opened my eyes when he began to speak.
"Of course I meant it my love. We've been together for four years, we have a house together, and you're my absolute, number one, best friend. My end goal is to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you and have kids and grandkids with you. Don't you want that too?" Shawn asked nervously. I smiled and nodded.
"I want everything with you Shawn. I know that we're going to go through hard times and fight at times, but all couples do that, and we're never going to break up or leave each other. You're my best friend Shawn, no one knows me better than you do. You know all of my stories and all of my secrets, even my deep, down, darkest secrets. I'm so in love with you my dear." I said. Shawn smiled at me as all of his nerves floated away. He placed a gentle kiss to my lips, causing me to smile, which made us pull away from each other, still smiling.
"Did you know that you know me better than anyone in this whole wide world?" Shawn asked. I shook my head no.
"No. Really? What about your parents or Aaliyah or Brian?" I asked. Shawn shook his head as he chuckled.
"Nope. It's you babe." Shawn said with a smile. Suddenly, I got another idea.
"What do you think of us taking a picture of me sitting on your lap?" I asked Shawn. He thought for a moment before smiling and nodding.
"Yeah. Let's do that." Shawn said as he leaned over and grabbed the camera. In one of the pictures of me sitting on his lap, I kissed his cheek, causing him to smile. In another one, I just simply leaned my head against the side of his head, which resulted in another photo, but of us leaning our foreheads together. After we took a couple more pictures, we looked through them. They all looked amazing.
"Shawn these all came out great!" I said. Shawn looked at me and smiled.
"That must be because you're in them." Shawn said. I lightly swatted at his chest, causing him to laugh.
"Here, hand me the camera please." I requested. Shawn seemed to be hesitant to hand it over to me. I giggled.
"Why? What are you going to do with it?" Shawn asked. I smirked.
"You'll see." I said.
"Oh God." Shawn said, causing me to laugh as he handed me the camera.
"Okay, stay just like you are, but look out at the ocean." I said. He did as told and smiled as I snapped some pictures of him. I even went behind him and took pictures from there. I stopped taking pictures of him for a moment so I could admire the view - not the ocean, no, but his lovely back muscles. I went back in front of him and he turned to me and smiled.
"I love you my darling." Shawn said, the wide smile still spread across his handsome face. I snapped a picture of him as he was saying that to me.
"I love you too, my handsome man." I said. His smile grew, and I took my opportunity to take a picture of him so happy like this. I took only a few more pictures before stopping and putting the camera away.
"Why did you put it away?" Shawn asked.
"Let's stop taking pictures and just actually be in the moment. Can I sit on your lap again Shawny?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded at me.
"Y/n, you can always come sit on my lap. You never, ever have to ask." Shawn said. I smiled at him and crawled into his lap once again. I sat so I was facing the ocean and my back was to Shawn's chest. His arms wrapped around me and I held his hands in mine. He rested his chin on my shoulder and I leaned my head on his.
"Thank you Shawn." I said.
"What are you thanking me for baby girl?" Shawn asked.
"For this vacation. For bringing me to a private beach so there's no fans or paparazzi around. For making me feel so beautiful and loved. Just for everything." I said, still looking out at the ocean. I could feel Shawn smiling as he placed a kiss on my cheek.
"You're welcome honey. Do you want to stay here for a bit longer or do you want to head back to the hotel?" Shawn asked. I thought for a moment.
"Do you mind it if we stay here for a little bit longer and then head back to the hotel?" I asked. Shawn shook his head against my shoulder.
"Not at all gorgeous." Shawn said, the nickname that he had called me causing me to blush. Shawn then nuzzled his face into my neck, and I could feel his eyelashes fluttering against the skin on my neck, causing me to giggle.
"Your eyelashes are tickling me, handsome." I said. Shawn chuckled.
"Sorry Y/n. Do you mind me having my face buried in your neck like this?" Shawn asked. I shook my head and lifted my hand up so I could run my fingers through his hair.
"Not at all baby. I fucking love it." I said with a laugh. Shawn laughed too. We remained like that for a little bit before heading back to our hotel room. We both showered to get the sand off of us and then crawled into bed with each other. Shawn was shirtless once again, so I placed a gentle kiss on his chest, right above his gorgeous chest hair.
"Darling?" Shawn asked. I kept my head on his chest so I could also listen to the soothing beat of his heart.
"Hm?" I responded.
"Can we print out and frame some of those pictures of us together?" Shawn asked. I smiled and nodded against his chest.
"I would love that baby. Now come on, let's get some rest." I said. Shawn kissed the top of my head, causing my smile to widen.
"Good night my future wifey." Shawn said.
"Good night my future husband." I said.
"I love you baby girl. Now and forever, I love you." Shawn said. I looked at him.
"I love you too baby boy. Now and forever, I love you." I said. Shawn pulled me up a little and placed a loving kiss on my lips before pulling away so we could fall asleep. I love my future husband to no end, and I love our wonderful vacation as well.