I walked to the bus stop as I put my headphones in blaring some greenday. It was too early and I was too tired to deal with half of the shit I was about to go through today like I do every other day. I've been walking for ten minutes and I'm coming up on the bus stop and as if right on cue James Wilson shows up at the other side of the intersection. Let it all begin.
"Hey Y/L/N" he said in a tone that could be easily mistaken as friendly but I heard the disgust behind it. I just raised my hand a little to acknowledge his presence "can you not talk now or something or are you just too good for me" he said in a rude tone
"I'm not in the mood today James" I told him flat out
"I'm never in the mood to look at you but we don't always get what we want do we?" By now we'd reached the stop and our bus was finally pulling up. Why? Why me? I thought to myself as I climbed on the bus and sat as far away from everyone else as possible.
"Why you sitting way up there Y/N?" I heard from the back
"Oh she's not in the mood today" I heard James reply mocking my voice. What did I do to deserve this. I don't even talk to them or bug them why do they hate me? I got off the bus and walked inside to my locker as I opened it I felt a large presence appear behind me probably Michael Clifford. I decided not to put my bag in my locker instead I was going to walk down to tim hortons and use the wifi to find out when the next city bus will come I don't even care where it'll take me. I turned to walk away and felt a hand on my shoulder pulling me back
"Where you going Y/N?" I was right it was Michael. We've gone to school together since grade 5 and he's never liked me. ever.
"Why do you care?" I scoffed
"Aww c'mon don't be like that"
"Like what Michael? Why does it matter where I'm going or what I'm wearing or what I'm listening to? You're just going to make of me for it anyway"
"Well I can't unless you tell me where you're going"
"Look I don't even know where I'm going but I'm leaving, so you're precious eyes won't have to be poisoned by this anymore" I said gesturing to my body as I said 'this' and I noticed that the rest of his clique had arrived. Calum hood, Luke Hemmings and Ashton Irwin. Great. I was done. I just turned around and walked away putting my headphones back in. I'm not perfect I know that but why do they point out all of my flaws and no one else. The next bus was coming in 15 minutes so I parked my ass on the bench and waited because I sure as hell wasn't going back to that prison. Someone sat beside me but I had my headphones in and didn't care much. Then they tapped my shoulder. It was Jake Brown. I took a headphone out "what the hell now"
"Is goodie goodie Y/N skipping school?!?" He said in mock exasperation.
"What's it to you?"
"I just can't believe it I didn't think you had it in you! Ooh you're such a bad bad girl"
"Fuck off Jake" I told him
"Ooh the f bomb too!! Who knew Y/N was so bad!"
"What do you want?!?"
"Don't worry I've got it" and then he left
The bus took me to the mall and that bus took me to the grocery store which took me to a sub division close enough to my own that I just decided to walk home. The walk took me 2 hours but it was peaceful and I didn't mind it until I reached the front door.
Unknown Number: is this Y/N
Me: who's asking
I let myself inside
Unknown Number: it's Ashton
Me: great what do want to make fun of now
I went straight to my room and grabbed my jewellery box. I dug to the very bottom and found the box of razors I hid there
Unknown Number: I don't want to make fun of anything Y/N
I went to the bathroom and ran a nice hot bath with bubbles and everything then I stripped down and got in
Unknown Number: no really I don't. I actually feel bad for how you get treated at school
Me: Oh I'm sure you do. Look I promise I'm trying to end this all just let me be I think this time it'll actually work
I started cutting anywhere I could. My wrists, my thighs, my stomach, the water turned a really pretty light red
Unknown Number: what do you mean you're ending it all? Don't do anything stupid
Me: isn't this what you all wanted? I give up, you win
I kept cutting deeper and deeper, faster and faster until the water was as red as my blood. I think I hit a vain. My vision started getting blurry, I felt myself starting to let go. This is it. After 6 years of fighting I've finally given up and this is how I'm going out. Good job I hope this is what you wanted. I heard my phone buzz one last time but didn't get the chance to read it before I let go
Unknown Number: no Y/N please hold on! It wasn't supposed to go this far! I love you but I didn't know how to tell you and I was just trying to get your attention and the boys were just helping me!!
Unknown Number: Y/N???