@ashton5sos: thank you all for your support, I'm slowly coming to terms with all of this.
**Five Weeks Ago**
This was the night, our 3 year anniversary, the day I was asking Y/N to marry me. This year has been amazing, words cannot describe how happy I am with her, and how happy she Is with me, she the most beautiful girl I've ever met and want to be with her for the rest of my life. So, me and Y/N drove down to our favourite place, the river, with a picnic. After we had finished I slowly got down onto one knee, and watched as Y/N's face turned into a giant smile. "Y/N, I've never loved someone as much as I love you, I want to spend my future with you, so please do me a favour and marry me?" She screamed yes, this was officially the best moment of my life. We climbed into the car giddy with excitement, when I saw a bright light coming towards Y/N, she screamed and I threw my body over her, I was too late. She was pronounced dead at the scene, my fiancée had died, taking my heart with her.