April 2, 1994
I didn't get back home until late at night. But as soon as I did, I rushed to my house and searched everywhere. I checked the bathrooms, the pantry, the cupboards, the washer and dryer, under the beds, the comforters, the blankets, every crevice, showers, toilets, dressers, everywhere.
And he wasn't fucking there.
I panicked. I really thought that he was going to be home when I get home. But he wasn't here. Where was he?
Just then, I heard the garage door open. I ran to the garage, but it was just Dave and Krist.
Dave ran to me and hugged me.
"I am so happy to see you," He told me.
"Me too," I smiled and hugged him, then Krist. "Where's everyone else?"
"Pat and Jennifer and Shelli are on their way," Krist explained.
"I checked everywhere and he's still not here," I said sadly. "I really thought he was going to be here."
"I know, I know. Come on, let's go upstairs. You smell horrendous."
"It's just your upper lip."
"You guys really know how to third wheel," Krist shouted as we walked upstairs.
"Cry about it," I flipped him off jokingly.
"Ruby, go take a shower," Dave told me. "I'm going to call Wendy and see if she's found anything out yet."
"Okay, Dave," I nodded my head. "Thank you."
I went into the bathroom and got undressed, then hopped into the shower. I thought about Kurt and all the times we had showered together in this shower. I wondered if he had come home during the period of time that he went missing and showered here. Or if he came here at all just for a place to sleep and went somewhere else during the day.
Where were you, Kurt?
Maybe he was with Courtney.
No, I shook that possibility out of my head.
I needed to not think like that. Because feeding that thought would just make me go down a tunnel that I didn't want to go down. It would make me not want to find him.
I turned the water off after showering and wrapped a towel around with me. I found Dave looking through our book of pictures that Kurt and I had of our family.
"You guys used to be so happy," Dave looked up at me. "What happened?"
"Drugs," I responded and went into my closet to put some new clothes on. "I fully believe that drugs were the number one cause of Kurt's downfall. I mean, besides his stardom and whatever, what else could possibly be the cause of all of this? Drugs really fucked him up."
"Yeah, I know what you mean."
"Promise me that you won't go down the same path as he did," I made eye contact with him as I stepped out of the closet. "Please."
"I promise, Ruby. Now you have to promise."
"I promise, Dave."
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Shelli, Jennifer, and Pat didn't arrive until a lot later. Everyone had fallen asleep by midnight, but I couldn't fall asleep. Not when there was the possibility of Kurt walking around late at night. He would be right outside the front door right now, but I would never know.
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It's Better to Burn Out than Fade Away-Kurt Cobain
ФанфикAfter Ruby Stockins's ex-boyfriend kills himself, she thinks that she will never date again. Until one day where she meets Kurt Cobain, she rethinks her decisions. What will unfold between her and Kurt Cobain?