Can We Fall One More Time? (Sequel To Gotta Be You)

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I left early in the morning, before Liam had a chance to wake up. 

Did I really just put the engagement on hold? For the longest time all I wanted was to marry Liam and spend my life with him.

There was still too much that I had to do though. 

It may only be a break, but it felt like we had broken up. There was just too much pain to see it as anything less than that. 

I entered the studio, needing one last moment with it before leaving. 

After a couple hours, I finally turned my phone off after getting numerous calls and texts from the guys, including Liam. 

I didn't even want to imagine how he felt to find me gone. 

I sat down at the piano and played the guitar track that had been programmed into it, needing a good cry as I processed my emotions. 

When I wrote this song, I didn't think there would be a moment when the lyrics would feel as real as they did, but this one is hitting hard. 

I lost myself as I played the piano. 

(Play video)

There's me
Looking down at my shoes
The one smiling like the sun
That's you
What were you thinking
What was the song inside your head
There's us
Going on about a band
Working out how we play our hand
I lay there dreaming
Later all alone in my bed

If I was stupid
Maybe careless
So were you

Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us

Freeze-frame
I'm not about to cry
It's too late for us to change
Why try
I've got a camera
Tucked away inside my heart

If I'm a loser
Or just unlucky
So are you

Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us

Somewhere between then and now
I look away when you said we'll never change
And if you think what might have been
You'll lose today and we've got songs to play

Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us
Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us  

I finished playing and looked over at the soundboard. This was a moment when I would do anything to have Darren here to help me through this. 

I needed his comfort; I need my friend.

There was no telling how I was going to cope with this. It was too hard to focus on anything, including the tour. 

"Gracie?" I heard someone ask.

I looked up and saw Zayn. I shook my head and he sat down beside me,

"Are you okay?" 

I shook my head and started crying again. He wrapped an arm around me and pulled me into a hug.

"You two aren't broken up" he whispered.

"In some way we are though"

He sighed "Liam loves you too much to break up"

"We're apart though" I stood "Nothing makes sense to me and it won't. I just, I can't do this!"

"Gracie, calm down. You need to breathe, or you'll have a panic attack" he said, holding me tighter.

"It's not fair. None of it is fair!" I cried.

"You two are going to find a way to work it out. It's not over, Gracie"

What if too much had happened to fix the problems?

"Trust me" he whispered. "We're all worried about you, and Liam is a wreck. He keeps staring at the engagement ring and barely speaks. Once he came to reality and realized you really gave back the ring, he was heartbroken"

"What about me? I'm heartbroken too!"

"I'm not saying you aren't" he replied.

"I need to go" I said.

"Go where?" he asked.

"I don't know! I just" I took a deep breath "Just don't worry about me, please don't"

He stared at me, concerned.

I leaned down and gave him a hug, then grabbed my things "If I don't see you before I leave on tour, thank you for everything"

"Gracie, where are you going?" he yelled as I walked out the door.