The failed experiment (Bucky x reader)

Second date

"Come on" Bucky took your hand after you grabbed your purse, and led you to the truck and opening the door for you. When he first got in, he turned on the music quickly and took your hand after he finished reversing out of the driveway. You gave directions to town when needed while he rubbed circles on the back of your hand. He talked more about the compound and different places he wanted to take you to once you were settled. You chewed your bottom lip in anticipation of the big changes that were coming. It surprised you that he seemed to want to continue this friendship or relationship or whatever this was.
"What's on your mind, doll?" he parked in the parking lot by the diner since you would be walking around town.
"You speak like this is something that you wish to continue once we are at the compound. But I don't understand what we are doing" you blushed.
He looked at you in silence for a moment, and unbuckled himself, then hit the buckle on you. Slowly he got out of the truck and walked around to your side of the truck and grabbed the door before you got yourself out. He leaned forward trapping you in, taking one of your hands and looked into your eyes with all sincerity. "We are courting, and I have no intention of this ending just because we change locations. I don't kiss my friends, or hold my friends the way I hold you" he spoke softly, and held your gaze. "Are we on the same page?" he touched your cheek, and you leaned into his touch.
"Why me?" you finally asked. "Your clearly out of my league"
"I keep wondering the same thing, because I think you're out of MY league. There's just something about you I can't leave you alone. You're beautiful, intelligent, funny" he grinned. "Incredibly brave" he leaned in more and brushed his lips against yours. "I'd be an idiot not to see all that, and more" he leaned in again and kissed you a little more firmly. "Are my intentions clear?" he gave a shy smile.
"So we are courting" you gave a shy smile back.
"I believe I have to wait for the third date to ask you to be my girl, so lets get the second one over with so I can take you on the third. That's how it is, according to the spider kid at least for his rules on dating" he pulled you out of the truck and you held fast to his hand as he closed the truck door.
"Have you ever made it to the third date?" you looked at him curiously.
"I've been on lots of dates, but never wanted one to be my girl like this" he flushed a bit. "I dated a lot more in the forties, but since I joined the Avengers I've been out with a few. Just wasn't what I was looking for" he admitted. "There's a dance to these things, and you need a spark"
"Is the dance literal?" you raised an eyebrow as he started leading you down the sidewalk. He chuckled, and brought your hand to kiss your knuckles.
"Kind of" he smiled at you adoringly.
"I like to dance with you" you had more pep in your step, and leaned into his arm a bit.
"What's this shop?" he saw the gift shop where they sold local artists wares. You both looked around the shop for a bit, before exiting. You found yourself relaxing quite a bit while he brought you into each shop regardless. When you walked into the grocery store he bought some plums and you some more flowers while you were grabbing a few peaches. You tried to buy your own peaches, but he wouldn't hear of it. After going around the block of stores, you both ate your fruit and dropped off the flowers at the truck. He led you back around to an empty playground and you both sat on the swings talking about different things either one of you had done over the years. Neither of you really wanted to talk too much about your time at Hydra. He listened closely to anything you said, and smiled when you started talking about funny stories with Morgan and his family. You admitted that Maria had really helped you a lot, by never letting you have the option to just not be touched. She always would just launch herself at you since the night of the fire, and just hang off you. She was never scared that you would burn her or freeze her, she trusted you to always be in control.
"Why are you having such a hard time controlling it now?" he finally asked.
"I always controlled my emotions, and controlled my environment. I stayed home, and went to work. I avoided having to feel anything. I was always scared that I would hurt someone. When I feel happy, or angry or sad... I have a hard time staying neutral or I guess what Tony says is scared. I feel happy a lot lately, and its hard to want to stay scared. I like feeling free of that neutral or fear, and I guess so does my body" you seemed thoughtful in your response. "Its like I can be myself, without worrying so much and I like it too much"
"I like it better when your not scared too" he took your hand, and kissing your knuckles.
"But that makes the inhibitors necessary" you bit your bottom lip.
"I'm not scared of them being necessary or not. You wont hurt me, or any of us. We know that" he shrugged. "You showed that the first time I met you. You came flying into the cabin ready for battle and had froze the jet to the ground. Then there's also that day you knew the enhanced was going to come after us, and you let your powers come out fully. You were still careful not to hurt us when you could have really let go" he gave your knuckles another kiss.
"I think I'm going to work on making it so my powers don't hurt to use them when I practice going forward. I always thought I deserved that pain, but I think logically I should be able to control them enough so it doesn't hurt" you frowned a bit at the admission.
"You mean you've spent the last 18 years letting them hurt you?!" he was shocked.
"I didn't think there was any other way, but I thought about it last night and I'd like to try" you shrugged a little embarrassed.
"I'll help you any way I can" he said after a small shocked silence.
"Didn't you promise me some fall colors and a dinner date?" you stood up smiling at him softly. He stood up and leaned forward giving you a gentle kiss on the lips, his hands falling automatically to your waist.
"I have a few things in mind" he pulled you close and started walking back towards the truck with you tucked under his arm.