Stole My Heart ❤️ {A Jackson Avery love story}

Chapter 175:

Today is my first day back at work and I can't lie, I'm pretty nervous. I've been learning more about myself since my doctor, Miranda Bailey, told me that I have amnesia. Jackson has been helping me remember things and it's been a struggle. I'm constantly forgetting people's names and it sucks. These people are supposedly my friends and I can't even remember their names. What sucks even more is that... I keep forgetting my own children's names. I hate myself for not remembering my own children's names. I try so hard to remember but no matter how hard I try... I can't.

Anyways, since I was discharged from the hospital, I've been going to therapy.

Therapist: have you retained anything new?
Delilah: uh, I've been focusing on names lately.
Therapist: and how has that been going?
Delilah: well, other than Jackson's, I've been remembering Alex's frequently. And recently, I started remembering Miranda Bailey more often. I can remember last names a little bit better, but I still have my moments.
Therapist: and your memories of them?
Delilah: I keep forgetting.
Therapist: that's okay. And how do you feel about being back at work?
Delilah: nervous.
Therapist: why?
Delilah: I'm nervous that I'm gonna forget how to be a doctor and kill a patient.
Therapist: that's very understandable. But you can't pressure yourself to remember. Your body is slowly recovering and you can't speed up the process.
Delilah: if only it was that easy.
Therapist: I believe our time is up. Now remember, take it easy while working and have someone around you at all times.
Delilah: yes sir.

I walk out of the therapist office where Jackson was waiting for me.

Jackson: so, how did it go today?
Delilah: the usual.
Jackson: good. Anyways, you should stick with me today. Unless... you'd rather be with someone else.
Delilah: um... would it be okay if I stay with... uh... Dr... he has red hair.
Jackson: Dr. Hunt.
Delilah: Hunt! Yes, Dr. Hunt. God, why is this so hard?
Jackson: Delilah, relax. It's okay.
Delilah: I'm trying Jackson, I really am. I...
Jackson: shh. I know you're trying honey, and you're doing a great job. You just need to relax.

Jackson pulls me into a hug. Ever since I woke up, Jackson has been really respectful of my boundaries. I've been sleeping in the guest bedroom at our house since I didn't feel comfortable being in the same bed as him, and he asks me for consent for hugs and kisses.

Jackson: I think Hunt is in the ER.
Delilah: can you lead me there? I'm still trying to remember.
Jackson: of course.

I grab Jackson's hand and he takes me to the ER.

Jackson: if you need me at all, you text me. Okay?
Delilah: mhmm. Thanks. Can I have a hug?
Jackson: yeah.

Jackson hugs me one last time then I walk around the ER.

Delilah: hi.
Bailey: Dr. Shepherd. Hi.
Delilah: hi Dr... Hunt. Hi Dr. Hunt.
Owen: hi Delilah.
Delilah: I asked if I could stick with you today. Is that alright?
Owen: absolutely.
Delilah: so, is there anything?
April: incoming. 20 minutes, chest pains.
Owen: we can take it. Page cardio– anyone but Riggs. I'll be right back Delilah. Stay with Dr. Kepner.
Delilah: okay.

Dr. Hunt walks off.

Bailey: page Riggs.
April: he just said—
Bailey: I can hear.
April: you know that Dr. Hunt punched Dr. Riggs.
Delilah: what? When?
April: a little while ago. You witnessed it.
Delilah: I did? Wow.
Bailey: don't worry about it Shepherd. Anyways, the only way they're gonna learn to work together is if they work together, so any cardio consults that get paged to the pit, you page Riggs.
April: you know, this is my one happy place right now? Please don't make it a crappy place.
Bailey: oh Kepner. I feel you, I do. Page Riggs.

I chuckle as Dr. Bailey walks away.

Delilah: is she always that feisty?
April: yes.
Delilah: listen, um... God, I am so sorry. I literally heard your name a minute ago and I forgot.
April: it's okay Lilah. Don't hurt yourself over it. My name is April.
Delilah: April. Thank you. Listen April, I can't seem to remember what's happening in your life right now and I'm probably not the best person to talk to since I literally forget everything, but I'm here for you if you need to talk.