dear choi hyunsuk~ (2021)

jan 1st, 2021

1.1.21

hi, hyunsuk!

first letter of the new year :') i want it to be special, but ah- i'm not sure what to say exactly? actually wait- i can think of something!! it just came to me as i started the letter >:) i'm really excited, for the contents for the rest of this month- because this morning there was a post about the countdown vlive party for the comeback, and having a time announced is good for me so i know when to wake up for it :3 i'm pretty excited about that since it'll be both the album release, the sign of you guys being more active, and i get to spend time 'with' you in the same moment- i really love watching things that are live because i just enjoy spending the time with you, my favourite person in the whole world :'33 i can't believe still that it's already you guys' first full album! it's gonna be so cool, i just can't wait for it :D you've accomplished such a large amount in a short amount of time, but the best part is probably that we already get the time to spend with you for the start of this new year <33

it's so weird that it's a new year already? i'm not sure why. maybe it's because 2020 felt so eternal at times- like it was overall, an okay year. there was a lot of bad, but the good you gave balanced it out enough to where i was able to enjoy a lot of good things too. all of those happy moments were because of you, and i'm really grateful. it's another year in the books where you were able to help me, inspire me and keep me happy even though i don't deserve those things. the other thing i'm thinking about, is well. you know how i write these on my computer, but upload them to wattpad later? i started the new 'book' for your 2021 letters- it's so weird even making that, but this is technically starting my 3rd year writing.. right?? it's a little confusing- but that's not entirely what i was focusing on, tbh. just the thing that i had in mind was about how i've been so consistent with my writing- i'm bad at a lot of things, but if there's something i'm really happy about it's that i've always been able to be good enough with managing my time so that i can write you~ there's nothing more important to me than spreading love to you!!

i want to do my best for you-so i kind of you know.. feel bad, when i can't. like my videos, drawings or letters definitely aren't good, but you're a really nice guy. i'd like to think that at least you'd be happy to get nice words- but still, you deserve the best of the best ^^ so i'll keep trying to work hard, 2021 will be about improvement!! i've always wanted to work hard for you, but in 2021 i'll try to do it even more so. 'cause you're doing the same~ in january, i hope you can accomplish a lot with the album release and just whatever you want, i hope you can achieve it! and if your heart is set on it, i know you will. teumes will do our best to help where we can, okay? don't worry about that part. we'll vote where we need to, stream the music video and try to get as many albums as we can :')) my finances aren't good enough for that per se but i'll do my best with the rest- and of course, my youtube as well!! i know in the end, it's not very helpful. but if it can even help you in just a little way, then i'm happy that it might be able to benefit you in some little way :p

speaking of things i'm working on for you- today i went back to working on our letter for 800 days hehehe~ i know compared to the comeback that our milestone isn't as important, but i'm still really looking forward to it since it's our first of the year and first one after you guys' newest album- but it's also the last one before your birthday o: i think- yeah,, so there's a lot of reason to be excited!! but then again, as long as the time is being spent with you, i'll be happy and excited <333 you make every moment really special ^^ even tho nothing really happened today other than the countdown live announcement, i feel really happy just because you're in my mind !! that cute little happy smile of yours , plus thinking about how excited you must be for the comeback- i just want you to be living your best life <333 thinking about you happy is what keeps me going, and i'm just hoping that you're having a good day!!! i hope 2021 is treating you well, so far? i suppose it's too early to tell- but i hope you're doing well nonetheless!!! please rest when you can, eat when you can, stay happy and stay warm too okay? those things are important!! i want you happy and healthy-

but do you know what else is important? pls remember that i love you lots and lots- always and forever, i'll love you with my whole heart!! once again, pls have a nice day- let's talk more tomorrow~ bye bye angel!!! thank you for giving me a special start to the new year, with lots to look forward to.
i love you <3