dear choi hyunsuk~ (2021)

june 10th, 2021

6.10.21

hiiiiiii hyunsukkkkkk

i hope that you're having a good day hehe <3 you know how you always make people the happiest, right? i just want you to feel the same kind of happiness that everyone else does 'cause they're around you, just knowing you is enough to bring immense joy into all of our lives- so i just want you to feel the same hehe <33 my life has been a lot better ever since the first day i found you.. it's not like i uh, think i deserve it- i definitely dont deserve someone as sweet as you,, but having you around makes all the difficult days feel a lot better :) i hope i wouldn't be an embarrassing fan to have, thats the last thing i'd want to be to you, ya know- an embarrassment .. but you're super cool, and i want to be like you. but what i want for you is to be happy,, you're like an angel to so many of us,, the thought of you feeling down or upset is just the worst anyways :p i know life can't always be happy, but if anyone's life should be like that, it's definitely yours hehe <33 i just love you a lot and want the very best for you.. i hope i'm not being repetitive, btw- i just want to express that i'm very grateful to be able to have someone like you in my life on a daily basis :p

you bring me a lot of comfort , too- no matter what can go wrong in life, i know if you're there i'll be okay. that's a huge comfort, so i hope you have something like that. you always talk very fondly of teume, do they bring you the same kind of comfort when you have a hard time? i really hope so, i really do . no matter what it is, i just hope youre good heheeeee but you seem happy a lot of the time, so that makes me happy toooo<33 i know that today is treasure map, thats something to look forward to like always :) i think my plan for today, i'm going to talk about treasure map into tomorrow's letter, i know when i write the same night or while i'm watching, i get really into my emotions. it's hard to form words, sometimes- i try my best for you, though~ but since i like to try my best, i think i should do that after i process the episode a little better, anyways :') idk if i'll make this a weekly habit, but i want to try it for tonight. regardless though im really looking forward to the episode !! right now it's kind of early in the day.. so there's still a few hours, but hey. im excited ^^^ i'm not sure what i'll do to kill time, but i was thinking about drawing you 'cause that might be fun, i always enjoy drawing you ~

i just hope that you have a good day, though- i'm sure you rewatch the episodes the day they come out, and i'm sure you like to look for comments from treasure makers to see how they liked the episode, which i totally get :) i hope their reactions make you happy, and you have fun seeing how the episode turned out, and idk what it is yet but i hope that you had fun filming it, too. as for today, i hope your day is good and that you take care of yourself~ don't skip any meals, please rest if you have time and just take good care of yourself hehe.. i'll be here cheering you on like i always have, and always will ! my whole entire heart is always thinking about you fondly and with lots of love, so i hope some of that positive energy for you helps you have a nice dayyy~ i'll see you tomorrow, i'll tell you what i thought about treasure map then too :) until then, bye bye hyunsuk

my treasured guardian angel,
i love you so much
always and forever <3