dear choi hyunsuk~ (2021)

april 26th, 2021

4.26.21

hey hyunsuk~!

how are you~? hehehe i hope you're doing well! i think i got so excited yesterday from the combination of both your selfies and the song recommendation that you dropped on weverse that i entirely forgot to mention it... but!!! omg the prices came out for truz plushies,,, and the medium chilli is super affordable!!! i wanted the jumbo one,, but i can't afford it- that's okay though!! i'm just happy to get anything, i feel really grateful that i have enough because the second i saw that chilli i knew deep in my heart i needed a plushie !!! >///< chilli will fit right in at home with my penguin plushies and other ones i already have on my bed ,, so i really can't wait!!! i hope i can get one before they sell out, i know chilli probably will~~ you created such a cute little guy, how could he not? T_T like the more i see chilli, the more fondly i look at him~~ he's super cute and just a cute character on his own, but since you made chilli, i guess it's only natural i think about you when i look at him T_T i know from what i saw on the treasure studio episodes and even that vlive you did trying to gauge names,, i just know that you put your heart into making chilli the best character he can be!! and it shows when you look at him :DD

man, i just love that little guy so much !!! i guess it's also natural since he's your son? hahaha kidding.. kinda,, i'm pretty sure i've seen you call him that on posts before LOL it's cute though!!! if i created a character i think i'd probably think of them as my kid too, but omg can i be honest??? this might sound cringe-y but when truz final design reveal came out, and everyone got to see what they finally looked like finished- i had this slight temptation to make my own character, just so i could draw her with chilli LOL it's weird right?? i just thought since i'm sort of an artist i have the ability to let myself indulge in stuff like that if i wanted :DD but i didn't want to be weird, so i ended up not doing it :D but if i ever made my own character, i'd work hard on creating it just like you did for chilli!! D: mine would probably be more simple,, but i think it'd resemble a penguin— oh i'm sorry though!!! i don't wanna be selfish, i'm starting to ramble a bit here i just got excited hahaha i've been thinking about chilli all day, i think i've driven my family practically insane?? i should probably stop before i do the same to you hahahah i'm sorry!! i feel kind of like ,, caffeinated but i haven't had anything ~~ just thinking about you is enough to get excitement flowing through my veins :D

it's nice to feel truly happy like this,, the moments where i just get to spend time thinking about you, all of the little moments i've had as your fan, all of these experiences and the ones i know that are destined to happen in the future, i guess i just get really happy thinking about those things !! it's the little things like that in life that bring you joy, and i can always count on you to give me those feelings ~~ you just make me the happiest in this whole entire world, and even though i say it every single day it's something that i'll never grow tired of doing T.T in fact,, it's something that makes me feel happier the more i say it !!! i just adore you a lot,, and proclaiming my feelings just lights up new thoughts in my heart- i always feel happiest with thoughts of you swirling around <333 and i think one of the big reasons i've been thinking about buying a chilli plushie so much today is just,, it'd feel like having another thing that reminds me of you, so close to me !! chilli is literally something you created and poured your heart into, by the side of your members who did the same with their own little babies T.T truz feels really special..so that's why i want to get chilli !! i think there's more reason, but if i got too emotional it might be weird so i'll try not to bug you okay?~ heeheh i'm just hoping i get all of my feelings out today, you're the only person i've 'talked' to today, even tho i know you won't read this, or reply to it either :00

but hey, thats okay !!! :p when i write i just like to imagine what you might say , if you'd like the things i write- or sometimes i imagine the little expressions you might have on your face !!! i just hope that one of them would be a smile, 'cause all i want you to feel is happiness <3 you work so hard in every single thing that you do, so i think what you deserve is to always have positive energy around you, since you give it to all of us<33 you're just really special so i hope that you know that!!! but ahhh i must sound weird,, so i'll leave you be ~~ but i'm very thankful to have been able to spend another day as your fan ~~ you make every day feel super bright so i hope yours is the same !!! pls eat well, rest well, and remember that you're so loved okay~??? have a great day because you deserve it !!! i'll see you tomorrow, and cheer you on like always every second inbetween <33 you're always in my heart ~~ ahhh again tho i'll see you tomorrow!! bye bye sukkie !!! <33

i love you <3