perfectionist complex

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Mickey x reader

From morning til midnight I cant find a reason

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From morning til midnight I cant find a reason

This world keeps on turning without a single motive

You were restless as you overthought about your to do list.

Your neighbor Mickey had hired you on as show manager.

Right now, you were wondering if you were the right person for the job.

The value of this life results to nothing much

Even if I were to die nothing would change

You were a complex person.

You strove to make yourself 'perfect' but punished yourself physically for being imperfect.

Scars littered your arms, always covered by your jackets, sweaters, long sleeves, you name it.

If it didn't matter either way then I would stay

I'd choose life and I would die another day

You were never able to go completely through with your suicide attempts.

You clung too hard onto life to  end it so soon.

Because I know right now if I were to die

I would rather leave a bit of me behind

Still, you couldn't help but wonder.

Would anyone remember you if you did die?

And I'm terrified, the future is unclear

In my own eyes, the past is dark

It was painful to think of the life you left behind.

The way HE treated you.

"Why wont you go? It hurts so much."

Mickey walked over to your house.

He was alarmed by the sound of glass breaking.

"GET OUT! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" you yelled at the other individual.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP AND JUST DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD SLUT!" a male's voice shouted.

The harsh sound of skin on skin contact sent Mickey into a rage.

"Please stop *sobs* OW YOU'RE HURTING ME!"

Wish my feelings would all be thrown all away

If it didn't matter either way then both the same

Mickey lunged at the male, his fist drawn back and colliding with their jaw.

He grabbed your arm and pulled you along to his house.

His cool hand tenderly rubbing the burning reddened flesh.

You dove into his chest, trembling fiercely.

Mickey embraced you snugly as you cried.

One hand at the back of your head that now pressed against his shoulder, the other rubbed your back. 

I would laugh so I could cry another day

And because of that I know if I'm alone

I would rather laugh my time all away

"Who was that guy and why would he hurt you?" he asked.

"He's.......my ex fiancé"

"Why in god's name would he do this to you?"

"I caught him cheating on me three times and left him without pitying him with a fourth chance"

"But, who in their right mind would do that to their betrothed? There's no love without loyalty"

"Look at me, I'm a wreck. I always have been one. I'm just a tragedy waiting to happen"

I wont love myself unless I am

Flawless in every single thing I do

Hesitating only shows how weakly you are

Feelings only just get in the way

"If you're talking about imperfections, then let me show you my point of view. Imperfections are amazing. It's like getting a really hard jigsaw puzzle. Those who are impatient are unable to put the pieces together. But, those who show patience, are slow, careful, and diligent. They will solve the puzzle slowly but correctly and completely"

So then maybe your in pain because you cant get back up now

And you cant seem to be taking anymore

Although emotions seem unnecessary

"You're the most patient person I've ever had the pleasure of knowing" you smiled.

It faltered seeing the scars visible on your bare arms.

Can you not feel something warm inside the tears

Something way too hard to see, and always wobbly

I think we all call it something like a "heart"

Mickey held your arm gently, kissing from the crook to your palm then giving the same treatment to the other.

Your breath hitched as tears unknowingly slipped down. 

If it didn't matter either way, I'd never stray

So I 'd see if it worth was my while to stay

Whether not I would cry today or maybe I'd laugh it all away

He kissed away the tears as he held you close.

A smile broke across your face through the tears.

You hugged him gingerly as you half chuckled through the tears.

I know I'd love that small life of mine the same

And even you

Never need to try and be someone else

"Thank you Mickey"

"Of course sweetie"

Just be you

"It's all fine." "Am I fine?" "You're just fine."

"And in time, you will find, you're just fine."

Mickey kissed you tenderly as he called the cops on your ex.

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