My key didn't turn my lock to open my door when I arrived home...the door was already unlocked. The smart thing to do was to call the police and tell them my door was unlocked when I distinctly remember locking it before I left, but good thing I didn't.
I walked into my apartment slowly and took a breath of relief when I saw Brock sitting on my couch.
"Boeser, what the hell?" I threw my things on my console table.
"You really need to upgrade the cable package there's like nothing on" he looked over at me holding up the remote.
"Funny, I thought this was my apartment" I grinned walking to stand next to the couch.
"Debatable" he looked up at me with a chuckle.
His smile always made me smile. He was such a gentle soul, everything about him was warming, comfortable and familiar. He had my heart. Well, half my heart. My heart, mind and body had been conflicted for some time. Brock definitely had a spot in my heart but unfortunately he had to share it at the moment.
"What brings you to breaking and entering my apartment?"
"You gave me a key so technically, technically it's not breaking and entering" he smirked at me causing me to roll my eyes.
"I like that new soap in the bathroom" I turned my head to see Elias emerging from the hallway rubbing his hands together.
Elias Pettersson, the owner of the other half of my heart. He was kind and sweet. I always felt cared for, adored and safe with him. Both men held a special spot in my heart but I came to the realization I could never have either of them quickly after realizing my feelings. Not only because it would complicate things, but because I knew both only felt friendly feelings between us.
Both of their touches set fire to my skin, their smiles made butterflies erupt in my belly and their mere presence made me a happier person. For me, they were trouble.
"What, do you have the whole Vancouver Canucks team back there?" I joked with a giggle.
"We can make it happen with a few calls" Elias smiled at me.
"Believe me, you two are enough" I laughed moving to the kitchen. "You both having dinner here or what?"
"Is that an invitation?" Brock asked with hope.
"I was just going to order out but I can definitely put on some chicken and vegetables or something, I'd love it if you guys stayed" I called out looking through the fridge.
When I pulled back Brock was standing behind me. Seeing him made a gasp escape me.
"Sorry" he lightly laughed. "But you don't have to cook, let me order some food for us"
"I don't mind at all" I smiled at him before turning back to the fridge.
"Come relax, Y/N" he said softly running a hand along my back to rest just above my hip.
"I can cook, it's not a big deal" I was barely able to get my voice above a whisper.
His touch was sending chills down my body.
"We came to spend time with you, spend time with us" he gently pulled me away from the fridge and closed the door.
"Are you sure?" I asked looking up at him.
"Positive" he ran his hand down my arm to take my hand gently. "Come on" he slightly tugged at my hand pulling me to the living room.
Elias eyed us as we passed him to sit on the couch.
"I'm ordering food" Brock stated with a smile pulling out his phone.
"Thank you" I softly smiled back as he walked to the kitchen dialing his phone.
"I'm sorry we kind of invaded your life" Elias looked at me seriously.
"I'm not" I smiled at him. "I love when you two invade my life"
He gave a slight smile as Brock returned.
The three of us talked until the food arrived. We had decided after eating that we were going to watch a movie. As I was putting the movie on Brock laid across the couch resting his head in my lap.
"Alright, we're doing this now?" I giggled looking down at him. He just responded with a smile.
I lazily laid my hand on his head and ran it through his hair.
"Wow, someone's getting special treatment today. Maybe I should have ordered dinner" Elias chuckled softly slightly turning in my direction.
I giggled a little at how childish the two were being and laid my free hand on Elias' thigh in a friendly manner. He slowly slid his hand down my arm and took my hand in his lacing his fingers with mine, his face showing a small smile as he did.
Brock shifted to look up at him. I couldn't place the look he was flashing him, maybe because I didn't quite understand it or maybe because they were being so distracting.
As Brock shifted to get back to his previous position he tilted his head slightly to place a quick kiss to my palm before returning to his original position.
The feeling of Brock's soft hair against one hand was completely conflicting with the feeling of Elias' thumb running gently against the back of my other hand.
The movie had been playing for not even ten minutes when I noticed Brock's breathing had evened out.
"Is he asleep?" I asked Elias making him lean forward slightly to check.
He nodded at me causing me to giggle a little.
"Help me? I have to go to the bathroom" I looked at him.
He helped me gently move Brock slowly enough that we didn't wake him so I was free. I ran to the bathroom and when I came back I noticed the movie was paused.
"I stopped the movie so you wouldn't miss it" Elias said as I walked back to the couch.
I let Brock rest where he was and decided to sit on the other side of Elias, throwing my legs over his thighs. He let one hand rest on my thighs as the other wound around my middle slightly pulling me onto his lap gently.
I leaned back against him as he wrapped his arms around me. A smile inched it's way on my face.
"I don't know what's gotten into you two tonight but I'll take it" I joked with a small laugh.
"I always give you hugs and cuddles" he chuckled softly.
"True, but I don't know you're more...affectionate?" I couldn't find the right words.
"How so?" He shifted to look at me.
"I'm not even sure but I like it" I smiled snuggling into him more.
"Me too" he smiled down at me.
We watched the movie in that position until my eyes started feeling heavy. I knew I would be joining Brock in a sleep state soon.
"I'm sorry Elias, if I don't get up I'm going to fall asleep on you and if I do there's no way I'm letting you move from this spot because I'm the most comfortable I've been in a long time" I giggled looking up at him sleepily.
"As much as I love the idea of you sleeping in my arms, I should probably get him home" he motioned to Brock but still keeping his grip on me tight.
He loved the idea of me sleeping in his arms? If I didn't think these boys were trouble before, they were definitely trouble now.
"You do?" I shifted slightly to look up at him.
"Go get ready for bed, love" he gently rubbed my arms a bit before I reluctantly pulled myself off of him.
My entire body reacted to the loss of his touch. I wanted to jump back into his lap, beg him to stay and claim him as my comfort for the night but I knew it was better that they both go home.
I quickly moved to my room getting ready for bed as fast as I could. When I opened the door I gasped a little at the sight of Elias. He had his hand up in a motion that showed me he was about to knock.
"Elias" I barely breathed out.
"I'm sorry, I just wanted to say goodnight" he smiled snaking his arms around my waist and pulling me fully against him.
"Not that I'm complaining but, since when do we say goodnight like this?" I smiled resting my arms around his neck.
"Since I...can't...not do this anymore" he spoke slowly as he dipped his head and pressed his lips to mine.
My hands moved to rest on his shoulders as I kissed him back.
"You take my breath away" he said lowly placing his forehead against mine making me giggle softly. "No really, you make it hard for me to breathe...you make it hard for me to think" he explained taking deep breaths.
"Eli-" I started before he cut me off.
"Don't, don't say anything" he clenched his eyes shut "just...let me kiss you just one more time" he opened his eyes slowly to look at me.
As a smile spread across my face he brought his lips back to mine. This time I took a little more initiative, moved my hands to the hair on the back of his head and gripped at it.
"Maybe we can talk about this soon? Maybe tomorrow?" I breathed heavily, and he thought I took his breath away?
I didn't want to lose his touch. Everything about kissing him felt so...perfect. The feelings I had been so good at keeping tucked away were now making an appearance at full force.
"Of course" he smiled softly. "Do me a favor? I'm going to go start the car, wake Brock up?"
"Of course, I'm on it" I laughed lightly.
"Goodnight" he looked at me longingly.
"Goodnight" I placed a gentle hand on his cheek as he smiled before he pulled away letting our hands connect quickly before we completely lost contact.
I didn't want him to leave. I wanted him to stay with me, sleep cuddled against me and wake me up with his kisses I didn't know I would love so much.
"Elias?" I called after him making him turn quickly towards me.
I walked a step or two towards him, brought my hands to either side of his face and claimed his lips with my own. I felt the smile on his face grow against my lips.
"You're making it very hard for me to leave you right now" he rubbed my back softly.
"Let's see how our talk goes and maybe next time you don't have to" I ran my thumbs over his cheeks.
He smiled and leaned down to give me one more small, slow kiss.
"I'll see you tomorrow" he turned to leave.
It wasn't until I heard the front door close that I knew it was safe to move. I knew I didn't have the strength to stop myself from pulling him back to me if I saw him again.
I walked to the living room, catching the sight of Brock's sleeping form on the couch. Reality hit me like a ton of bricks in that moment. I had been so wrapped up in the feeling of being with Elias that I had almost forgotten he only owned half my heart.
I took a deep breath and moved closer to Brock, kneeling down beside him. He looked so peaceful I hated waking him up. His face was soft and it almost hurt my heart. I had no idea how I was going to handle things.
If Elias was the one that actually wanted me, would I be able to fully give up Brock? I knew deep down I would have to if I wanted to make things work with Elias since Brock wasn't an actual option. But, as I sat looking at him peacefully sleeping I realized more than anything I wished he was an option. Maybe it was better that he wasn't, that would be noting but trouble.
"Brock" I slowly shook him. "Brock, honey" I shook him one more time as he slowly stirred.
He opened his eyes and a smile spread across his face.
"What a way to wake up" he chuckled softly.
"I know scary sight right?" I giggled laying my hand across his chest as I pulled myself to a more comfortable position.
"Absolutely not" he started placing his hand over mine gripping my hand "wish I could always wake up to your beautiful face"
"You're a goof" I smiled at him "Elias is waiting in the car for you" I explained as he sat up a bit.
"He can wait a few more minutes" he smiled at me.
"Thank you for dinner" I rubbed his chest lightly.
"Anytime...maybe next time I can take you out for dinner? Just the two of us" he brought a hand up to rub my cheek ever so gently.
"Are you...are you asking me out?" I asked shocked.
"Is that ok?" He nervously laughed.
A smile made an appearance on my face as I breathed a laugh.
"You love making trouble for me" I shook my head playfully.
"What do you mean?"
"I just...I'm in so much trouble" I laughed softly.
"I'm...sorry?" He rubbed my shoulder.
"No, it's just...god I really want to say yes, you have no idea and you're making me really want to kiss you right now with the way you're looking at me but I would just be making more trouble for myself" I chuckled. "Maybe I'm already in trouble" I shook my head with a laugh.
"Babe?" He spoke making me bring my eyes to his waiting for him to continue. "You are in so much trouble" he grinned crashing his lips on mine.
He was right, I was in serious trouble.
For: mitchyymarns
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