RoadTrip boyxboy one shots

💔Goodbye, I'm Sorry - Mindy

THIS IS HELLA DEPRESSING AND IT MENTIONS SEXUAL ABUSE AND SHIT SO BE CAREFUL MY LOVELIES

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"Time has run out, for me
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe"

The condensation trickled down the mirror, running over my reflection like the tears ran down my cheeks. The shower made the mirror foggy, hiding my reflection. I couldn't see myself.

I had lost myself. Metaphorically and physically. I wasn't the same person I used to be. I had lost the real me.

"It's so hard, lost in the world confusion
And I need to leave, for a while"

It used to be simple. I had it all worked out. I knew what my dreams were. I had aspirations. I wanted so much out of life. But it's all messed up now, and I can't deal with it anymore.

It was all supposed to be so simple.

I wore a wide smile as my fingers trailed across the keys. My dad had taught me piano, and I wanted to make him proud.

"That sounds beautiful, Mikey!" My mother beamed.

It made me happy seeing the smile on her face.

"Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile
So goodbye, I'll miss you"

I wiped away some of the water off the mirror, so I saw a small fraction of my face. I looked terrible. Puffy, blood shot eyes. They were pale. They lost their sparkle years ago. The day my father died.

"Mum? Mum! What's wrong?" I asked, seeing her crying alone in the kitchen.

"Nothing, baby. Go back to bed!"

"Why are you upset? Where's dad?"

She looked drained. Mentally and physically drained. I missed her smile.

"Dad isn't coming home tonight, love!"

"Oh, so I'll see him tomorrow?"

She shook her head. "Not exactly!"

I was confused.

I didn't understand. I was just a boy. I didn't understand pain and suffering.

But I do now.

I looked to the left to see the photo of me and my dad up on the wall. I put it in the bathroom so that nobody would see it when they came over. He looked so happy. So young. So full of life. He didn't deserve to die.

"And I'm sorry, but this is my fate
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay"

I still remembered his funeral. It was nice seeing my family all together, even if it wasn't a happy occasion.

"My dad was an amazing man. He was kind. Caring. Loyal. Funny. Just an amazing person. He cared for me like a father should. I'm devastated that he's gone!"