He frowns.
Sawyer: What do you mean?
I remove the washcloth from my head and sit up, crossing my legs.
Mariella: I mean, what are we?
He walks to the side of the bed and sits.
Sawyer: Why are you asking this all of a sudden?
Is he trying to avoid the question? I'm not so sure I should've asked.
Mariella: Well before, you said you would never date me and now it just seems like we're together or something. I don't know.
I turn away.
Sawyer: I didn't say I would never date you. I just said, "I wouldn't".
My heart starts to ache. I bring my knees up to my chest. Is he trying to let me down easily.
Sawyer: The only reason I said that was because I still had mixed feelings towards your sister. I never thought you would be interested in someone like me.
I purse my lips.
Mariella: Well, I never thought you would be interested in me either.
He faintly smirks.
Sawyer: When I first meet you, you reminded me so much of your sister.
That's not a good thing. I love her, but I'm my own person.
Sawyer: But then, once I got to know you better, I realized you're nothing like her and I shouldn't have compared you both from the beginning.
I turn back towards him, hopeful.
Mariella: Well, how do you feel now?
He scoots closer.
Sawyer: I care about you, a lot. When I asked you to go to dinner with me, I knew it wasn't a date, but I was glad you accepted.
Mariella: Even though it didn't turn out great..
Sawyer: One little mishap happened, so what? I got to spend time with you and that's all I wanted. Who cares if the waitress was a little bitchy. That's her problem.
So, he agrees with me.
Sawyer: I like spending time with you no matter what happens. I don't mind taking care of you or buying things that you need. I care for you and I want you to know that.
I grin.
Mariella: I care for you too.
He smiles, placing his hand on my knee.
Sawyer: You've learned a lot about me that I've been scared to tell anyone and I'm so happy you don't think of me differently. I'm just not sure I'm ready for a relationship.
He has been through so much. I guess, I can understand.
Sawyer: All I know is that I want to be around you everyday and when we're apart, I can't help but miss you. I didn't think we needed to label our relationship.
I shake my head.
Mariella: No. I didn't want to label us. I just wanted to hear this from you.
He lightly squeezes my knee.
Sawyer: Well, listen good Mariella. Because, whether you're my girlfriend or I'm your boyfriend.. I love you.
"He loves me?"
Mariella: I- I don't know what to say.
Sawyer: You don't have to say anything. When you're ready to tell me your feelings, I'll be there to listen.
I place my hand on his broad arm.
Mariella: No, that's not it. I just never thought you would say those words to me..
I lightly sway back and forth.
Mariella: I love you too, Sawyer.
I lower my legs, leaning in. He places his hand over my lips.
Sawyer: Remember? I'll get sick.
I sit back, flustered.
Mariella: Right. Sorry. Got caught up in the moment.
He pulls me into a tight embrace. It felt nice to rest my head on his shoulder and know that we had just confessed to each other. A small tear of joy, streams down my cheek. I let go, wiping it away.
Sawyer: Don't work yourself up.
I swat my hand.
Mariella: I'm fine. It just slipped out.
Sawyer: Just because we're not officially a couple, doesn't mean it won't happen in the future. I just need time.
Mariella: I know. I understand.
He gets up, leaning down, kissing my forehead.
Sawyer: Now. Rest!
Mariella: Okay, okay.
I lay back, placing the washcloth on my head.
Sawyer leaves as I lay there, thinking. We're not a couple now and I'm okay with that. Things can change later on and I'm willing to wait. I'm in no rush.
My mind starts to wonder and I think of Joey and Meghan. What will happen between them? I want to talk and be okay with Joey again, but I don't want any problems with Meghan. I just don't understand why she's acting so obsessive and weird all of a sudden. It's not like I'm going to steal Joey away.
I hear something coming from the end of the bed. I crawl over and dig through my clothes. My phone falls onto the bed, buzzing.
Mariella: Hello.
?: Are you okay, I heard about what happened?!
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