Trap House Imagines ✔️

Singing

Thank you @Phoebe545 for this request and thank you for you patience ❤️

I've always suffered from anxiety, I could be fine one minute and the next I'm shaking while my heart is pounding. There are of course triggers for me for example public speaking or if Colby doesnt come home the exact time he says he does my mind immediately goes to the worst that he's hurt or somethings wrong. My ex was a dick, he wouldn't care about where I was or who I was with. He wasn't very affectionate either so when I started to date Colby who gave me love and attention I guess I became a little clingy. Colby is currently out filming with the boys so I said I'd clean the house.

I set up my phone in the kitchen putting on some music and begin to wash up singing along to the songs. As my playlist continues I don't hear the door open or close as I'm actually enjoying myself cleaning

"You know you really something, yeah
How'd we get here so damn fast?
Only you can tell me that
Baby, 'cause you know I'm coming back
You're making me forget my past
Never thought I'd feel like that again
I came to peace with my path
Now you got me off track
I've never been this scared before
Feelings I just can't ignore
Don't know if I should fight or fly
But I don't mind
Mmm
Tripping, falling with no safety net
Boy, it must be something that you said
Is it real this time or is it in my head?
Got me tripping, falling with no safety net"

Suddenly I hear claps behind me, I drop the plate I'm holding and look to see all the boys staring at me
"Baby I didn't know you could sing like that"
"Oh erm"
"YN your so good" Sam yells
"I errr I... I need the toilet" I run out of the room and shut myself in Colbys room feeling the tears forming and I begin to shake trying to focus on my breathing. I sit down and the door opens
"Oh YN I'm sorry" Colby wraps me up in his arms "I didn't mean to cause you anxiety to flare up"
"I... he..." I try to form a sentence but can't as my breathing hitches
"Shhh tell me later when you've calmed down. Let's lie down together and watch funny cat videos" I lay down next to Colby who links his phone to his tv. He puts on cat videos and I start to calm down
"My ex would tell me to stop singing because I wasn't good at it. He told me not to sing in front of anyone"
"He was an even bigger dick than I thought. Baby you have a fantastic voice but even if you didn't who gives a shit" I sit up a little and look at Colby "you never ever have to feel embarrassed in front of us ok? Plus I can guarantee there some embarrassing photos and videos of me on the internet. Like I got arrested in a Justin Bieber shirt for goodness sake" I laugh thinking about Colbys mug shot " I love you YN"
"Thank you Colbs. I love you too"
"Now do you want to go down and get some food?" I shake my head
"No can we just stay up here and cuddle?" I ask
"Of course angel" there a knock on the door "come in" Colby yells and the door slowly opens
"Hey YN. Are you ok?"
"Yes Sam. Thank you"
"Jake said he will jump in the pool naked in front of all our friends if it will make you feel better" Corey pats Jake on the should
"I- I did?"
"Yes you idiot"
"Ohhh yeah I did" Jake nods making me laugh
"It's ok but thank you"
"We're gonna chill up here for now might come down later" Colby says
"Ahhh chill being code for something else" Jake says making me roll my eyes
"Come on let's leave these 2" Sam says
"Use protection" Jake yells as Sam shuts the door makes both Colby and I laugh. Colby picks up his phone but I take it off me
"No. Your giving me cuddles and attention"
"Come here" he opens out his arms and I lay down on his chest. Colby plays with my hair before we both fall asleep having a nap.