Touch Me

Variations And Relations

"I'm nervous.."

"Understandable. I'm nervous too."

"I'm nervous about the plane as well.. I always get nervous on planes.

"It'll be okay. Once we're up in the sky, you won't be so nervous.."

"I hope.."

"And then we'll have a nice flight, and land in Salt Lake.."

"And we'll see Grammy..."

"I know you're scared. I am too. But this is important to you. And it's going to be good for both of you."

"I know.. we should probably board before I chicken out" I chuckled

"Sounds like a plan.... just take a deep breath. I have a feeling this is going to be really good"

"I sure hope so.."

The flight to Utah was a long one. I was able to catch a long nap on the flight, waking to the plane, run long . I was immediately frightened, but Kevin, who was still awake, was quick to calm me.

"It's alright.. just some turbulence..don't worry. Try to get back to sleep.."

"I-I'm sorry... I woke up to it, I feared the worst.."

"It's okay. You're alright. We'll land in about an hour longer.. try to just relax."

I nodded and squeezed his hand quickly, before he set it on my leg. It helped put me at ease. It always made me feel better.

"Sing me to sleep, will you?"

"Not here, Sunshine.. just shut your eyes.. you'll be asleep in no time.."

I nodded and shut my eyes, trying to focus on the calming feeling of his hand on my thigh. It was able to fall back asleep, and woke during landing. By then, Kevin was asleep as well.

"Sweetheart.. get up, we're here.."

He protested a bit, still half asleep, but prepared to exit the plane when he realized that we had landed.

We caught a taxi to my grandmother's house, which is something I've never done before. They don't have a lot of taxis in small town connecticut.

"Do I look alright? Do I look presentable?" I asked as we turned down her street.

"You look adorable. Do I look okay?"

"You look great.. I'm scared."

"Don't be. She clearly wants to smooth things over. She's ready to open her mind.. and her heart, too.."

"..as nervous as I am, I'm very excited.. I have a shot at having a family.."

"I'm so excited for you, Connor.. this will be wonderful."

"God, we're here.. last time we were here, she was ordering us out."

"I know.. but she invited us back for a reason. She wants to be in your life.."

"...Tell me it'll be okay" I sighed, getting ready to get out of the car.

"It'll be okay, Connor. I'm sure of it."

That gave me the final push to get out of the car, and walk up to her house. Kevin was standing behind me, his hand on my shoulder. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door, and it was answered quickly.

"...Hello." I greeted, forcing a small smile.

"Hi.. uh, come in.. I'm glad you're here."

We entered the living room. It felt more welcoming than last time.