Roses And Thorns (UNDER HEAVY EDITING)

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-Haunted by the distant past

Although it's been a while since you've been officially out of my life, I can't help but ache at the thought of us, the memories flooding in my mind are dangerous for me, yet I can't help but bathe in them. I let myself imagine what I would do if I could use time for my own selfish benefits. I'd turn it back to the last time we were hanging out and stop it there, just to spend eternity with you. I may sound cheesy and romantic, but I wasn't like that before you happened. The ache I feel at the thought of your careless behavior and how you didn't love me back made me want you even more. You made me a hopeless romantic, just by making me fall for your mysterious cold dark eyes that remind me of the emptiness inside of me, these eyes I couldn't help but imagine with the change that love would do to their intensity.
I wish we had more time for ourselves. I wish we were meant to be, but reality isn't considering any of these wishes, it's keeping my heart wounded by the memory of us, letting time help you forget me, while it's slowly killing me.