Roses And Thorns (UNDER HEAVY EDITING)

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-Acceptance is the key.

"I guess that's what life is about, you know," I said, smiling sadly at my reflection in the water. "It's about accepting your fate, learning lessons, working on that better you you want to reach, all without giving up no matter how heartbreaking it all seems. And I guess what I can say I truly learned," I said, turning to look at him staring straight at me, "is that no matter how much I wanted us to happen, as friends, lovers, or whatever, in any form possible, no matter how much good I saw in you and proudly defended you, and saw potential and kindness in you, you turned out to be yourself, scarred and full of demons. And I had yet to accept the fact that I couldn't accept the whole you, for you're a storm that can't be tamed, you're simply unpredictable. And now that I see you still looking at me like that, giving me that usual blank stare of yours, my last assumptions turned out to be true. You simply don't want to be saved. You're not willing to fight for your own damn self, let alone fight for me. I really don't blame you, and I don't hate you. I won't spit on your name or be the reason of a scandalous reputation about you. Don't worry about that, worry about how you really didn't know me and how much you mattered to me. Worry about the hurtful words you said to a girl that wanted to make peace when you were wrong and causing war. I hope you get a nice future, and you fall in love. You need to fall for someone until it hurts. You need to stop being scared of feeling. Maybe it already happened and she broke your heart in grade six, that's why you turned out that cold, but my guess is that you have some other family issues that made you broken. I finally guessed the reason you're like that. I hope it all gets better, so you can feel deeply happy without a worry. So you can feel alive. So you value people that value you instead of breaking them and walking out of their lives just like you did with me."