Roses And Thorns (UNDER HEAVY EDITING)

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- Took me a while before I got over you.

Sometimes while reading poetry, I find you in these heartbreaking poems, talking about love and lust. But then I figured it was probably just lust to you from the start, nothing that meaningful. I did wish sometimes, even if I hate to admit it, that we worked out. That we became a couple that inspired people. It felt so right to feel this way about you.

I was so stupid to believe we were destined to end up together. You were far from the one. It was not my time to fall in love and be loved back, I had to experience heartbreak another time. See, I've never been loved. And I longed for it.

The others before you were merely crushes, and it wasn't really disappointing to find out they wouldn't last. But I have to admit you were the hardest to forget. I still were not sure currently what kind of feelings I still had when it came to you. 

What I knew for sure, was that you weren't meant to be part of my life anymore. I was growing tired of missing you. I should've never waited for you to fight for me and come back. You were not meant to stay. I didn't matter to you the same way you did to me. 

I knew that I got beyond attached to you, and you were sadly toxic for me. I only had to move on, to make that fight every day. What I've learned from books that talked about feelings, was that I still felt empty, lost and sad without you.