My Life, My Secrets, My Story (THE LIFEST SERIES BOOK 1)

My Life, My Secrets, My Story Part 35

"Yah, I'd like that." I replied cooly.

"Ok. Dress nicely." he said.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"It's a surprise, just for you." he said, tapping my nose, cutely.

I pouted, I wasn't a big fan of surprises, and he laughed. He was back to his normal self after I woke up. He was just a little more protective and careful. I didn't really mind that, I enjoyed it.

"Ok. Well I'm gonna go to bed now." I said.

"I should go too. Good night." he said, pecking me on the lips.

Even that little peck made me want more, so I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down, kissing him harder. He groaned is surprise and kissed back. It felt so good, as the shocks ran through my body, like every other time he kissed me.

Normally, I wouldn't have done that, but I really wanted it. Ever since I woke up, I've wanted Alec more than ever. It's a strange feeling, but it feels good. I'm going with my heart on this one.

He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer as our lips smashed against each other harder. I wrapped my arms around his neck, wanting to get closer, which was impossible. Our lips melted and moulded against each other, as his scent woody, and taste, a little like strawberries, floated around me. He licked my bottom lip, and I pulled away. This caused him to groan and push away too.

"Why do you do that!?" he asked, exasperated.

"Sorry! I'm still don't know anything about you. I don't feel comfortable. Sorry." I apologized, explained, and looked down, feeling guilty and sad.

He lifted my chin up, forcing me to look into his chocolate colored eyes. I was about to get lost in them, when he started speaking.

"Alex, it's ok. I would never do anything to make you feel uncomfortable. If you don't want to, I won't it's ok. I don't want you to feel upset or guilty because of me. I won't ever push you to do something you don't want to." Alec comforted me, I could tell he was a little disappointed.

His words made me feel so much better but I still felt guilty. I already did it twice now, he was probably getting annoyed or frustrated. It's just really hard for me to trust people, and the fact that I still don't know that much about him doesn't help anything.

"On our date, we'll get to know each other really well, ok?" Alec asked and said, reading my mind.

"Mmmmmm." was my reply.

It was just my way of saying, I like that idea. I laid down on the bed, and snuggled in. He kissed my forehead and went to his room.

I set my alam clock for 5:00am again, preparing to make breakfast again. And with that I fell asleep.

.: Dream :.

I saw Alec, he was standing in our meadow. He was smiling and laughing, at what I have no idea. He just looked really happy, which in turn made me happy.

Then the scene changed to a dark room, I think. He was there, looking mad and murderous. He didn't look anything like he was just a minute ago. He completely changed.

"I Hate You!" he screamed.

That hurt, it shocked me. He said he loved me, just a while ago. I started crying, really crying. He hurt me. I knew this would happen, I predicted it! Of course he'd hate a broken, hurt, pained piece of trash! Who wouldn't?!

"Your the evil! You made my perfect life into a nightmare! I hate you, and I never want to see you again! Your the reason I'm a freak!" he yelled.

"I'm sorry! Don't hate me! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" I told him.

He faded away, leaving me heartbroken and hurt.

.: End Of Dream :.

"Alex! Alex, Wake up! It's just a nightmare!" I heard a voice say.

I opened my eyes, to find a worried Alec, in my room. Relief spread through me as I saw him, clearly concerned for me. It meant he still loved me, I think.

I wrapped my arms around him, sobbing uncontrollably. He pulled me closer, soothing me. I held on to him, for dear life, as if he would leave me any minute. I didn't want the nightmare to become a reality. I snuggled into his chest, which I noticed was bare. I pulled myself closer, wanting to get closer to him, but it was impossible.

"Shhh, shhh. It's ok. I'm right here. Relax." he soothed me gently.

His hands were rubbing circles on my back, relaxing me. I still felt as if he would leave me and I panicked. The nightmare was so vivid, and horrifying. I felt as if it would become a reality, it scared me.

"Don't hate me! Don't leave me! Don't let go! Don't hurt me! Please. I'm sorry!" I pleaded with him, pulling myself closer, wanting some reassurance.

"I don't hate you, I love you. I won't leave you, I'm right here. I'm not gonna let go, I'm holding you. I won't hurt you, I want to make you happy." he said, rejecting my thoughts, as he continued to rub circles on my back.

I calmed down, knowing he was telling the truth. I snuggled into his bare, hard chest, loving the feel of his arms around me. It seemed as if I couldn't get close enough, which was impossible seeing as we were very close to each other.

"Prove it." I asked, or stated, still needing evidence. I was still a little scared.

"Ok." he said.

He kissed me, without any warning. He pressed against really hard, and I felt all of his emotions in it. I felt his tongue licking my bottom lip, and opened up, letting him in. I felt the need to get closer to Alec. I was no longer scared he'd hurt me. I wanted him to love me, and I wanted to love him.

I didn't only let him into my mouth but my heart too. I heard him moan and my body got hot all over. He explored my mouth as I discovered his, loving the feel of it. He massaged my tongue, and I moaned in response, enjoying it way more than I should. I pulled away, the need for oxygen to big to ignore.

We sat there, in the room, panting like crazy. Once our breathing slowed, I laid back down, relaxing. He sat down on my bed, stroking my face. Mmmmmm, it felt really good, I closed my eyes. I felt myself drifting off when Alec spoke.

"What was the nightmare about?" he asked, softly, not wanting to startle me.

"I don't feel like talking about it." I answered, not wanting to lie to him, but not wanting him to know.

He seemed ok with the answer. He continued to stroke my hair. I starting to drift off, when he got up, to leave, but I grabbed his hand. I didn't want him to leave. I was scared more nightmares would come.

"Stay, please." I asked, or said.

Without another word, he got into bed with me, and wrapped his arms around my waist, and pulled me closer. My back was pressed against his bare chest and I could feel his 8 pack against my back. He felt really warm, so warm that you didn't need a blanket but I still pulled the covers up.

"'Night, Alex" I heard him whisper.

He whispered it right into my ear, and I felt his breath on my ear. It made me shiver, in delight. I was having some really naughty thoughts. I shook them off and whispered good night. This time, I didn't have any nightmares.

I always have nightmares. That's why I'm an insomniac. I've been trying for years and years to find a cure for my insomnia, nothing ever worked. I'd tried everything possible and nothing had helped.

Alec is the only thing that has ever worked. It seems that he is the answer to all my problems. If listening to my heart was excepting Alec, then I wouldn't mind at all.

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Ok, so that was a fluffy, nice, happy chapter. I felt like giving them some time off before I throw something else at them.

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