sad :(
sap, george, dream, tubbo, tommy, punz, bad on stream
clays perspective:
"guys, whats been your favourite moment of youtube?" bad asks.
the discord call erupts into crackling mics, sharing their stories. after a few minutes of story-telling, luke scoffs.
"look whos being quiet," he retorts. suddenly it feels like a bunch of demons are towering over me, flames in their eyes as they burn me.
"huh?" i ask.
"youre always silent. can you speak up? put some effort in?" george chimes in.
"i dont mean to be silent," i respond quietly.
"there you go again, being quiet!" tommy yaps.
CHAT:
somethings not right,,
uhhhhhhhhhh
???
why r they mad lol
fake friends alerrttttt
run dre run
pff like they'd be fake
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i exhale. i feel overwhelmed. i fiddle with my fingers, slouching back into my chair.
"just try harder."
i dont even know who said it. but it hit too close to home. in fact, it crashed through home. it sent debris tumbling down into my stomach. debris of my home. my home was my friends. but now im not sure. i dont know why theyre acting like this, but im too scared of asking. god knows what they'll do.
"do you guys ever consider the fact that... i am trying? but dude its really hard. i tell you guys over and over and every time you all gang up on me and shut me down. then i think that maybe i was designed to be alone. im losing myself trying to please everyone. so please, go easy on me. im giving you guys what you want, im giving you unconditional love, attention, whatever you want, and you know what i get? i get hurt. ripped apart and torn up. i was crying last night, but you dont care, do you? i cried because ive been strong for too long. now its crumbling down. and its all your guys' fault. you all say i never do anything for you but i fake a smile, i put on a persona, i act happy, i pretend to be stable, i open up to you, i forgive you, i give you too many chances, i love you guys... unrestrictedly. im trying. okay? i really am."
the call falls into a silence. like a fresh blanket of snow covering spring and blooming flowers. like when your favourite song fades out.
CHAT:
:(
buddy joined your channel.
"...dream?"
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