Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not findTrigger Warning: this chapter will mention rape, and child abuse. If any of these topics bother you I recommend skipping this chapter.
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Smile for me princess.
The words haunted me over and over again. Repetitively, a never ending cycle. Over and over and over.
Smile for me princess.
The same four words. Those are the same four words that destroyed my life.
I could feel the metal chains, wrapped around every limb. I couldn't move. He hit me. The many scars I had were from him.
Help me
I couldn't scream. I tried so hard but I couldn't. The tape covering my mouth and the tears streaming down my face.
Don't you want a pretty picture?
I was exposed. Alone. Just me and him. My bare body was stuck in these same four walls. The chains dug into my wrists, breaking the skin.
I was numb. I couldn't feel anything anymore. He came onto me and I couldn't do anything.
The countless times I had been raped. I was only thirteen.
The camera flashes were all I could see through my tear filled eyes.
This is all my fault.
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My eyes shot open and my lungs inhaled any air I could. My heart was pounding so loud I could hear it. I grasped the sheets with tears streaming down my face.
I stumbled trying to reach the patio door.
I need the sky
I gasped for air, trying to control myself. I couldn't take this anymore. Every time I feel better it comes back to haunt me even harder.
"This is all my fault.. this is all my fault.. this is all my fault" I repeated the words to myself knowing they were true. I was stupid. I did this to myself.
As my breathing started to control itself, I let the tears run silently. I couldn't think, every moment was running through my mind
Little splices of flashbacks haunted me.
"You fucking brat, you are going to pay for this" He screamed and threw a hammer at me
He hurt me so bad, it was all my fault and now I'm like this.
It had been awhile since I had a moment this bad. I could tell they got worse when I was stressed. The last week and a half since I got my new job has been beyond stressful. Trying to get everything together and finish old work.
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