Tied Together with a Smile

Chapter 21

Let's pretend Charlie wrote the songs in this <3
Charlie POV

I picked up the guitar and began to strum, deciding spur of the moment what I was gonna sing.

I got no excuses for all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over, 'cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry to my future love for the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human

A tear slid down my cheek when I finished and I noticed tears on Taylor's cheeks too. "Your so talented baby." "Thanks hun. I wrote that last night actually." She smiled watching as I began to play again

She just wants to be, beautiful
She goes, unnoticed she knows, no limits
She craves, attention she praises, an image
She prays to be, sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see, the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain
And cut her woes away
'Cause covergirls don't cry
After their face is made
But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful
We're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful
We're stars and we're beautiful
She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, covergirls eat nothing
She says, beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything
What's a little bit of hunger?
I could go a little while longer, she fades away
She don't see her perfect
She don't understand she's worth it

"I wrote that about you... I know you've been struggling again for a while now Tay." I spoke gently as I came to be next to her. "I'm sorry. I thought I was fine. I really thought. How could you tell?" She questioned. "You started making small portions, declining offers to go out to eat, what you did get for yourself you didn't even eat half of. I could tell." I explained and she nodded sadly. "I really am sorry. Sorry, it's been like 7 years, I don't know why this is still such an issue." Her voice cracked. "Honey no, no matter how long your in recovery your still gonna have hard days. Does your mom know?" She shook her head "I can't bring myself to tell her. It broke her so bad the first time. Being the reason for that again, I just don't know if I can do it." Taylor spoke sadly as she fidgeted with her fingers. "Okay, c'mon let's call her okay? But first why don't you go take a shower, your sweaty." I laughed and so did she. Helping her to the shower I waited outside the door for her to finish and get changed before asking her to unlock her phone and dialing her Moms number. "Hello?" The woman picked up. "Hi Andrea. Would it be possible for you to come over?" I questioned "Yes of course. What's happened?" "Um well, Taylor has had a bit of a hard morning. I think she could use some support from you right now."

Hi! Here's more Taylor stuff. Suggestions? Opinions? How do we like Charlie dabbling in music?

-Brooklyn