MaNan: Can I Love Her ?

Chapter 6-1

N: (Now nandini also shouts). Bas karo mukti, aur kitna jhooth bologi. Tum mujhse jhooth bol rahi ho ya fir khud se. mujhe yakin dilana chah rahi ho ki khud ko ki tumhare paas dil nhi h. (By now mukti was in tears, so, nandini now started speaking calmly) Mukti rone se tum kamzor nhi ho jaogi. accept karo apne fear, it will lighten your heart and will give you more strength. please mukti apne ap ko aisi saza mat do. Please. (By now, mukti falls on her knees and started crying aloud and nandini hugs her tightly to calm her down and mukti also hugs her back and cried alot and after some time, when she got relaxed, she started sharing her pain with nandini.)

MU: Haan, tumne sab sach kaha nandini. M thak chuki hoon khud se bhaagte bhaagte. Aur nhi hota mujhse, bs toot chuki hoon ab main. (Again the fresh tears started falling from her eyes, nandini took her head in her lap and ask her to continue.)

N: Mukti, mujhe batao. m tumhe judge nhi karungi. Please mujhe batao. I'll try to help you. Please apna pain share karo. please. 

(Now, mukti was at her lowest and she need someone to take out her all pain, so, she decided to tell nandini everything)

MU: Pata h nandini, m ek rich family ko belong karti hoon, mere paas har luxury h. mere parents ne mujhe sab kuch dia bas apna tine dena bhul gaye. maine aj tak apne parents ke sath 2 min bhi dhang se nhi bitaye. Bachpan mein jb school mein bache apne parents ki stories sunate the ki vo vahan ghumne gaye, aj unki mama ne khane mein ye bheja h etc. etc. , mere paas kuch kehne ko hota hi nhi tha. Mere parents ko apni parties se fursat hi nhi thi. ( now, nandini was also crying with her, but now she saw a beautiful smile on mukti's face.). And then i met Fab 5. we were different but our pain is same. so, we made a band Fab5. we were very happy with each other. we were each other's backbone and then, that incident happened which once again hollow us. We lost alia. 

N: Alia?

MU: The 5th member of Fab 5. meri soulie, meri best friend. i can share anything with her without any doubt but in an accident, she left us. and then i left myself. At that time i was in a secret relationship with harshad (even fab5 doesn't know about it till now.). Harshad alia ka bhai h. But after her death, harshad asked me to choose between fab 5 and him. I asked him alot... ki, please aisa mat karo. i need you. nandini, tumhi batao, ki m kaise choose karti? eh taraf Fab 5 meri family aur dusri taraf harshad, mera pyaar. But, harshad was adamant and at last, i choose fab 5 .

N: But why he asked you to choose at the first place?

MU: Actually harshad think that manik is responsible for alia's death. (this come as a shock to nandini.)

N: Manik? par kyun?

MU: Actually, manik and alia were in a relationship. infact, bhut pyaar karte the ek dusre se. Manik toh aj bhi usse pyaar karta h aur uska wait kar raha h. usse lagta h ki vo zinda h because we didn't get her dead body. (All this hurt nandini to the core. Her heart started crying alot by thinking that her love loves someone else and her first love will not be fulfilled ever. Yes, Nandini realised that she started falling for manik. but she controls her emotions brcause now her first priority is mukti.) . Infact manik aj bhi guilty h, vo bhi yahi sochta h ki uski vajah se alia aj hamare sath nhi h. hum sab enjoy kar rahe the and alia started running and manik runs behind her aur uska pair fisal gaya aur vo cliff se gir gayi. Hum sab toot gaye the. Hamnein manik ko samjahane ki bhut koshish ki par vo aj bhi khud ko hi zimmedar samajhta h aur fir harshad ne bhi usse hi kosa. 

MU: Tum hi batao, m manik ko kaise chod deti, vo mere bade bhai ki tarah h. usne hamesha mera sath dia, jis waqt usse meri zarurat thi, m usse kaise chod deti. par m aj bhi harshad se pyaar karti hoon, aj bhi bhooli nhi hoon usse. Kya nandini m itni buri hoon, ki m kisi ka pyaar deserve nhi karti? Bachpan se lekar aj tak mujhe kisine pyaar nhi dia? (and mukti started crying, nandini wipes her tears.)

N: Nhi mukti, tum bilkul buri nhi ho. tum bhut achi ho. tumhare parents nhi jante ki unhone kya khoya h tumhe khokar. unhone tumhara pura childhood kho dia, jab unhe is baat ka ehsaas hoga, tab vo bhut royenge ki unhone ek angel ko itna hurt kia. but mukti tum bhut strong ho ki tumne khud ko kamzor nhi padne dia. aur tum buri kaise ho sakti ho? tumhare paas fab 5 h jo tumse itna pyaar karta h, tumhare liye kisi se bhi bina soche ladne ko tyaar ho jata h, itna pyaar karne wale, care karne wale dost h tumhare toh tum akeli kaise hui. tum toh lucky ho jo tumhare paas itne ache friends hain jo tumhari real family h. (mukti become really happy by listening all this.)

N: Aur rahi baat harshad ki. m janti hoon ki usne jo kia vo galat tha aur usse jaldi hi is baat ka ehsaas bhi ho jayega. (actually nandini thought of some plan to make harshad realise his mistake.) aur vo tumhare paas vapis bhi aa jayega aur agar vo nhi aya, toh samajh lena ki koi h jisse aiyappa ne sirf tumhare liye banaya h jo tumhe khud se bhi zyada pyaar karega, jo tumhare is pyaare se dil ko sambhal ke rakhega aur vo tumhe fir se pyaar karna sikha dega. hmm?

MU: (Mukti was dumbfound after listening nandini. ) Nandini, thanku so much. i am seriously feeling ki sara pain chala gaya aur ek sukoon mil gaya. Thanku . tum se baat karke bhut acha laga and now i am at peace. Thanku for everything nandini.  and i am sorry too maine jo bhi tumhare sath kia.

N: Its okay mukti. tum khush raho bas. Chalo ab m chalti hoon. bye.

(nandini was about to go but mukti stopped her.)

MU: Nandini?

(nandini turns towards her.)

N: Don't worry mukti. m kisi ko nhi batayungi aj jo hamnein sab baat ki, fab 5 ko bhi nhi.

MU: I know that nandini. i trust you. (nandini become very happy after listening this.) Vo, if you don't mind can i ask you something?

N: Haan, mukti bolo na.?

MU: Kya m tumhe chotti bula sakti hoon?

N: Huh?

MU: Vo, m hamesha se chahti thi ki meri koi chotti sister ho, toh kya m tumhe chotti bula sakti hoon. (Nandini smiles widely after listening this and hug mukti tightly.)

N: Ofcourse mukti. thanku so much mujhe ek badi behen dene ke liye. Infact i will be blessed to have an elder sister like you.

MU: (Mukti becomes very happy and hug her tightly.) Thanku so much chotti. :-) 

(They broke the hug)

MU: Acha, chal canteen chalte hain?

N: Mera ek lecture h, m uske baad tumse milti hoon. 

MU: Chal thk h. bye. 

N: Bye. 

(And both went to their respective destinations .)

Mukti is at peace now and is smiling whole-heartedly without any pain and also she got a sister and her family i.e. nandini and fab 5 and nandini was also happy that she could take mukti pain out and help her and she also got a sister like mukti but some part of her heart is sad also that she can never get her love because he loves someone else , but keeping herself strong, she decided to take manik's pain away, if not being a lover, then may be by being his friend. 

And the day continues....