Chapter 11-4

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Manik was all time smiling and all others were surprised to hear him openly confessing his love for nandini.

M: U know there is a saying, You should lose your soul, because loosing your soul has more value than loosing your heart, and I am lucky that I have lost both my heart and soul to my love, my nandini. (Others were having there eyes wide open as if they have seen an alien because manik having such deep thoughts is surely beyond their imagination and manik became confused.)

M: Guys, why are you looking at me like that as if u have seen some alien? (Others came out of their trance.)

C: Toh alien hi toh dekh rahe hain. Tu hamara manik nhi ho sakta? (Manik became confused that why cabir is saying like that.)

M: Huh?

C: Huh, kya huh? Manik aur itne deep thoughts , not possible bro. (Now, manik came to know the reason of their shock and he smiled widely because he likes this change in him and all this is because of his nandini only.)

M: Nandini ke pyaar ka asar h.

MU: We can see that. U have changed completely.

M: Yes, I have changed and changed for good. Aj tumhe ek baat sach-sach batata hoon, mujhe please galat mat samajhna. Agar aj alia hamare saath hoti aur hum relationship mein hote toh bhi m nandini se pyaar kar baithta. (Manik look towards all of them to see if they got angry, but no, they are just curious to know further, so, sighing deeply, he continued.) Haan, yahi sach h. Kyunki maine kabhi alia se pyaar kia hi nhi aur nandini hi mera true love h, meri soulmate h vo, toh hamein toh ek hona hi tha. Haan, ho sakta h ki agar m aur alia saath hote, toh shayad mujhe realise ho jata ki m usse pyaar nhi karta ya shayad na bhi hota aur humare beech sab vaise hi chalta rehta par mujhe alia se kabhi pyaar nhi hota kyunki sacha pyaar sirf ek baar hota h aur vo bhi apke true love se jo mere liye nandini h aur m nandini ki jagah aur nandini ka haq kisi ko nhi de sakta. Mujh par mujhse zyada nandini ka right h, she owns me completely. Agar aj alia yahan hoti bhi toh bhi m nandini se pyaar kar hi bathta kyunki nandini ka sirf ehsaas hi kafi h mujhe ye batane ke liye ki pyaar  kya h aur m usse kitna pyaar karta hoon, hum dono soulmates hain toh mujhe ye realise ho hi jata ki mera sacha pyaar nandini h aur alia sirf ek attraction. Aisa nhi h ki m alia ko cheat karta ya fir nandini hamare beech aa jati. Nhi, bilkul bhi nhi, nandini itni selfless h ki vo kabhi apni khushi ke bare mein nhi sochegi, vo khud dard seh legi par apni khushi ke liye kisi aur ko dard nhi sehne degi, ye h meri nandini. Aur m alia ko cheat nhi kar sakta tha because hamare beech jo bhi tha par usse pehle vo meri friend thi aur m usse hurt nhi kar sakta. Tum sab jante ho,maine 3 saal kisi ko apne kareeb nhi aane diya par kab nandini mere kareeb aayi mujhe pata hi nhi chala, maine bhut koshish ki thi nandini ke liye apni feelings ko ignore karne ki yeh sochkar ki kahin m alia ko dhokha na de doon par kab mere dil ne nandini ko accept kar liya, mujhe pata hi nhi chala. Maine khud pe control karne ki bhut koshish ki par kab mera dil mere dimag se jeet gaya mujhe kuch khabar hi nhi hui, mujhe toh tab pata chala jab m nandini se beintehaan pyaar kar chuka tha. Nandini mera sacha pyaar h aur hamein toh ek hone hi tha chahe alia meri life mein hoti ya nhi, par manik ko nandini ka aur nandini ko manik ka hone se koi nhi rok sakta tha. mera dil toh pehli beat mein hi nandini ka ho gaya tha jab maine nandini ko dekha tha aur kahin na kahin m bhi nandini se pyaar karne laga tha bas khud ko rok raha tha aur fir jab ehsaas hua ki pyaar asal mein hota kya h tab pata chala ki m nandini se kitna pyaar karta hoon bas fir khud ko nandini ka hone se nhi rok paya. 

Maine koshish ki thi ki nandini ko apne kareeb na aane doon because meri life totally messed up thi aur m nhi chahta tha ki meri wajah se nandini ki life mein koi problems aayein kyunki m nandini ko hamesha khush dekhna chahta hoon, isliye maine koshish ki thi usse khud se dur karne ki, chahe usse mujhe takleef hui par nandini ki khushi mere liye zyada important thi, par jab mujhe ye ehsaas hua ki mujhse dur rehkar nandini ko zyada takleef ho rahi h, mujhe dard mein dekhkar vo zyada dukhi h aur vo mujh par give up nhi kar rahi, balki mera usse gussa karne par bhi vo mera haath pakadkar mere saath khadi h mujhe sambhalne ke liye toh m khud ko rok nhi paya aur usse apne kareeb le hi aaya aur uski warmth mein kho gaya aur usse apni life ka sab sach bata diya. M nandini ke saath kuch bhi share kar sakta hoon, kuch bhi matlab kuch bhi chahe vo phir mera pain hi kyun na ho kyunki m janta hoon ki vo h mujhe sambhalne ke liye, mera dard kam karne ke liye. Kal jaise usne mujhe sambhala, mujhe life mein pehli baar ek maa ka ehsaas mila uski warmth mein, usne mujhe maa ki tarah sambhala, jaise usne mujhe samjhaya pehli baar dad ki protection mili ki koi h mujhe sahi-galat samjhane ke liye. (Now, manik has a sweet smile on his lips and shine in his eyes.)

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