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142 | goodbye, Sirius

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𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓢𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓾𝓼,

I apologize, once again.
I stopped writing my worries
and forgot how good it felt to
express myself here.

I never thought we would get
to this point, not only with us, but
with our lives.

Perhaps I stopped writing because
there was not need to write my
heart down, because you have it right there with you.

After all we've been through,
from the highs and lows,
perhaps this was meant to be like it is.
Perhaps destiny is that cruel.

It's strange, don't you think?
Being raised to be a certain way, to have your decisions under control for the rest of your life, when in the end, it's not you who decides what happens with your life, but fate's.

Many people don't believe in it,
and I understand. I wish I didn't believe it in either sometimes.

I want to think that fate has a plan for us, that all of this was supposed to happen, but it's not all just colors
and bright sides. I guess I have come
in terms with it.

The only condition that I have is that
one day, when all of this is over,
we get a long lasting hold of happiness.

The journal has almost come to an end,
I only have one page left, can you believe it? I suppose I should thank you, because you are the main reason why
I found a coping mechanism. You are the reason I started all of this.

I can't believe that after all these years, we're still the same.
Perhaps that's a good thing, or maybe fate is really that cruel.

I have come here to say goodbye,
my love.

Many things have happened,
good and bad. And even though I will never understand why, remember,
we will always find a way back to each other. No matter the distance or circumstance.

This journey has been perhaps one
of the most exciting things in my life, writing and knowing you has been a pleasure.

Loving you and being a part of you
has been one of the greatest things
I have done.

But it's time I live in the present,
where I can finally say what I feel out loud. It's time I stop thinking of
what could've been, and start thinking of what is going to be.

Letting go of bad memories
and bad experiences is not a bad thing, as long as it makes you feel at peace.
It doesn't make you a bad person if you want to forget and heal.

Writing you did help me express my feelings, as strange as it sounds.
After all, I was finally able to take the first steps by myself, and now,
I shall take the last ones with you
by my side.

Writing you has been a wonderful dream mixed with droplets of reality.
You were the one who lifted me to the sky, and the one who kept me on my toes in the ground. Flying had never felt so good.

I look forward to see what other things life has for us. We will do anything we can to be ready, we are stronger together. Whatever it happens,
we'll endure it. The future might be uncertain, but our love will not.

So thank you, Sirius, for the highs and lows. For all those years of laugher, tears, smiles and memories.
You were the loveliest.

Goodbye, Sirius.
I love you.

𝓢𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂,

𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓢𝓪𝓶𝓶𝔂