Purple Roses ° Sirius Black ✓

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𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓢𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓾𝓼,

I finally gain the courage
to ask you to go to hogsmeade with me, but it didn't go as I imagined.

I wanted to wait until you were alone, which never happens, but I found my opportunity in the library.

I went there to get a book,
and while looking for it, I saw you
were sitting in the table in the back.
You were surprisingly alone.

I took a breath and walked up to you. You gave me a smile when you notice me, and I returned it.

❝hello, Sammy❞
You said, leaning back in the chair
❝looking for me?❞

❝I was, actually❞
I was squeezing the book so tightly
that my knuckles turn white.
But there was my opportunity, and I couldn't let it go
❝I was wondering if you wanted to
go to hogsmeade with me❞

You raised your eyebrows in surprise and I felt my mouth go dry, ready to be rejected.

But before you could answer,
someone else did. Leaving me sadden.

❝Sure, we'll go with you❞
I turn around and saw Hannah Linmann, from Ravenclaw. I'm not going to lie,
she is a very beautiful girl, Sirius.

She sat next to you,
little too close for my liking,
leaving her books in the table.

❝I don't think Sammy
wants you to go, love❞
You said to her and then both of you
turn to see me.

I wanted to go running away,
but it was too late.

❝It's not a date, isn't Samatha?❞
She asked me and the lump in my throat grew bigger.

I shook my head
❝I just wanted to ask Sirius,
but it's okay, I—❞

❝good, then you don't mind
me coming along, do you?❞
She asked smiling and I tried
to return it.

❝of course not, Hannah❞
I smiled and I looked at you.
You just smiled at me and then at her.

❝Great, then I'll see you both
this saturday❞
she said smiling wide.

❝lovely❞
I said, pretending to give
my best smile.

She stood up, picking up her
book and you followed her.
She lean over and gave you a kiss, making me look away
❝goodbye, Samantha❞

She was dragging you away,
but you stopped and looked at me
❝are you sure you're okay with it?❞
You asked and I smiled, nodding.
❝tell me if you change your mind...goodbye Sammy❞

❝goodbye❞
I whispered and saw you both
leave the library.

I sighed and closed my eyes.
That was not how I imagine it to go.

I went back to the common room,
where Remus and Marlene were, laughing at something.
I sat next to Remus and sighed.

❝what's going on, Samatha?❞
Remus asked after seeing me look into the flames, not saying anything.

❝I'm an idiot❞
I replied, but not looking at them.

❝what did Black do this time?❞
Marlene asked, and I froze.

I looked at her and and then
at Remus, who didn't seem
surprised at all.

❝why do you assume
it's about Sirius?❞

❝it isn't?❞
She asked with her eyebrows
raised but I didn't answered.

I just kept looking at the fire,
letting Remus pat my back.

It's not your fault, Sirius,
it really isn't.

It's not your fault that I fancy you,
a lot.

Goodbye Sirius, I'll see you tomorrow.

𝓢𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂,

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