Purple Roses ° Sirius Black ✓

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𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓢𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓾𝓼,

Have I ever told you how
much you mean to me?

I probably have,
but I want to repeated for you.

There are many ways to show appreciation, to say I miss you,
to say I love you.

I can say them all and I would
still want to find more ways to demonstrate you how much you
mean to me.

I probably sound like a helpless romantic, but I don't care.
I prefer for the world to look at
me like I'm crazy in love, than to be bitter and mad at the world.

I'm prepare for the day I get to
say my appreciation, to say I miss you, to say I love you.

It's crazy how I can pour all this emotions and feeling in this paper.
How I can describe my love and
give you my heart, yet in real I freeze and I just want to be by your side,
not knowing what to say.

I suppose the day will come
where I get to actually be brave.

Actions speak louder than words,
my love.

But you'll see.
I promise I will be able to say it,
one way or another.

I'll probably write you a letter and send you some flowers. That would be
a great story to tell, right?

You know, I hope I'm the first one
to say it. If the day comes where
we're together, I hope I'm the first one to tell you how I'm feeling.

Maybe it's not the best idea,
many things could go wrong. For example, what if you don't reciprocate? What if you feel awkward and say no?

I know I told you before that I rather have you as a friend, than lose
you as a lover. But if the day comes,
I'll tell you how I feel.

It's okay if you say no. I can't
get mad because you don't
feel the same. How could I?
I'm not going to force you or hate
you for not looking at me the
same way I do.

I would probably be disappointed,
but I would be rather sad
if I lost you completely.

Let's just hope it doesn't come to that.
I'll keep it to myself for
now. Just as I have been done
for the past few years. But I assure you, that I won't take that long,
not anymore.

Goodbye Sirius, I'll see you soon.

𝓢𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂,

                            𝓢𝓪𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓱𝓪