"Hey..." Justin says shocked as he meets your eyes. "I didn't know you would still be awake?" He says closing the door.
You felt a lump in your throat. You weren't sure whether to confront about how you've been feeling lately or to just let it go.
"Same.." You manage to choke out before turning away.
"Is everything alright?" He says concerned.
You nod your head still not looking at him.
Maybe I should tell him...
"Y/N?"
You almost felt your heart drop at the sound of his voice. You didn't want to feel this way, neglected and all but with him never around, you can't ignore the feeling.
"Actually no. I'm not alright. This, doesn't feel right." You say turning towards him.
Justin looks at you confused. He throws his jacket on the couch before walking towards you. "What are you talking about?"
You shake your head. "Never mind, forget about it. I'm just going to go to bed." You turn your heel making your way upstairs.
"Y/N!" He yells, not with anger but confusion.
You stop before looking down. You felt a huge pang of regret ever bringing the subject up.
"You can't just say you're not alright then walk away..." He says with a much more gentle tone.
He was right....
You take a deep breath before turning around.
"Look, I completely understand your career. I've been by your side for as long as I can remember but last night-" You felt your eyes become watery as you couldn't even finish the sentence because of how choked up you were feeling. "I needed you the most..." you say almost in a whisper.
Guilt is expressed across Justin's face. He takes a step closer towards you.
"Babe I'm sorry but I told you last night I had to work late-"
"Because of the album." You say abruptly interrupting him.
You could tell he was hurt but in your defence he wasn't the only one. "I thought you supported me." He says quietly.
"I do, but last night made me realize that what happens if there was an emergency? Can I depend on you to be here or are you going to finish your damn album first?!" You say harshly.
Words were flying out and you had no clue what you were saying but you couldn't hold back your anger.
"You're being ridiculous right now." He scoffs as he crosses his arms.
"Am I?" You say crossing your arms aswell. You felt the need to challenge him, to push him in order for him to realize.
Justin looks at you shaking his head."Yes you are. I think we should both go to bed and talk about this in the morning." He walks past you but before he can go furthur you grab his arm.
"No."
Justin looks at your grip on his arm before meeting your eyes, shocked. You gently release his arm before looking at him once again.
"Im not going to wait anymore, I want to get this off my chest." You say trying your best to sound confident but deep down you were afraid of what was going to happen next. You guys rarely argued and you weren't sure if the aftermath is going to be positive or negative.
You watch as he takes a deep breath. "It was one night, I promis-"
You roll your eyes as you throw your hands in the air as a sign of irritation. "This isn't about one night Justin! It's the fact that- .... you are never here!" You say almost yelling the last few words. You felt tears rush down your face. You didn't want to cry because you felt there was no need to but you couldn't help it.
Justin looks at you not saying anything. You decided to continue. "For crying out loud, I don't even know whether to still cook dinner for two or for one? Or if I should wait up for you to get home safely or just go to bed? It's like I'm living by myself. You don't even check in to see if I'm alright which I clearly am not, which isn't fair because I always listen to you and consider your feelings. How come you can't consider mine?"
Tears were streaming down your face. You felt neglected and alone, and you didn't know how else to handle it.
Justin takes a step closer but you chose to take a step back. You didn't need his comfort right at this moment, you needed him to understand. "I do, but you can't just make me choose between you or my career.."
"If it was the only option, would it really be that difficult to choose?" You say, the tone of you voice was bitter and harsh but you didn't care.
"You're not being fair." He says angrily.
"Neither are you?!"
Justin runs his fingers through his hair as he paces back and forth before pausing to look at you. "Why can't you understand? When will you learn that this is what I love and if you can't accept that then-"
"What? Leave?" You say interrupting him once again.
Justin looks at you shocked. "No-"
You quickly wipe away your remaining tears. "For the record, I would never in a million years make you choose between me or your career, I'm not like that. I completely understand everything because you are so passionate about it and have I not been supportive in everything? It sucks that you don't give me enough credit for always being there when at times no one was? You know, sometimes I can have rough nights, I can have bad days, but I expect you to be there for me just as if it was the other way around."
Justin was about to say something but you turn to grab your keys and coat. You turn towards him.
"I'm going out and don't you dare follow me." You say lastly before storming out the house slamming the door behind you.
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Part 2?
