Kwentong Kolehiyo

I Can't

I'm an 18 y/o dude and I really give importance when it comes to my virginity but just last week I lost it. Ngayong araw lang nag sink-in sakin na hindi na pala ako virgin then I started to think kung anong pwedeng mangyari sakin in the future. Like for example anong sasabihin ng magiging girlfriend ko? What would society think of me pag nalaman nila? My family,what would they say? Would they leave me or what?. Guys bat ba kasi ang bobo ko? ang tanga-tanga ko,how can a person like me be respected if ako mismo di ko mabigyan ng respeto ang sarili ko and the one that I had sex with? Fuck this guys. Suicide is the only thing I can think of right now. Bat ba kasi ang hina ko? Bat di ko tinatagan sarili ko to avoid sex? Kalalaki kong tao and yet I'm so weak.

Ma,pa sorry. Etong akala niyong pinakamabit niyong anak eh hindi sumunod sa utos niyo. I know kahit na hindi niyo malaman to you will get dissapointed sa nangyari. I'm really really sorry. Sorry for being weak. Thanks for everything! I will love you always

kuya ingatan mo prinsesa natin ah? Wag na kayong mag-away please? Mawawala nako oh baka walang umawat sainyo. Yung studies mo kuya keep it up! You're really doing great.

To our dear little princess though your already 16 you will always be my/our princess. Galingan mo sa uste ah? Sorry if di ka mababantayan ni kuya sa school physically but I'll make sure na kapag wala nako magiging okay ka lagi. You'll grow-up to be a fine young woman,aral muna before lovelife okay? You're still young you can do a lot of things in your life.

To the girl whom I have sex with,I'm sorry for not saying no when you asked me to have sex with you, I should have controlled myself for doing such of a deed. Sorry for taking your virginity.

And to my special someone though I have never met you,sorry kung mawawala na ako kaagad ah?,sorry if I can't hug you physically or play with you in the rain or sing you songs when you want me to,I'm so sorry. Find a better man than me, someone who's not weak. Someone who's not me. I'm pretty sure he's very lucky having you. Take care always! I love you!!!

To those who finished reading this,thank you guys! Adios!"

virgino
2014
College of Science