Jackson State- Part 2 JS2

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RJ's POV



I Sat there confused , How could someone feel anger and sympathy for someone at the same exact time . As I held my sleeping brothers hand , I felt a grave amount of anger , not only geared towards him , But myself and Jayce as Well . I was Furious that the kid couldnt just listen to me and stay away from jayce, as If I was telling him that to make him miserable . I was Livid with Jayce , so livid that Talking was out of the question I was going to Kill him , not literally but he would most definitely wish he was dead once I was threw with him . I have to say tho I was more angry at myself , angry that I couldnt be there to protect him , angry that I couldnt do exactly what I wanted to do to avenge my brother . The very second I felt like I couldnt handle another ounce of anger , sympathy kicked in as I watched him sleep , His face was practically unnoticeable . Trust me out of all people I know the lil nigga got a mouth piece on him , we didnt call him scrappy doo for nothing . Like my dad always said a hard ass makes a soft ass , He was notorious for writing checks his ass couldnt cash , but nobody deserved whatever happened to him . Just that quick I was back to anger , because I had no idea what happened to him , he's been asleep since he was placed in his room . The not knowing was driving me insane . My mind was instantly pointing towards the worst , So many evil volatile thoughts ran threw my head and they all involved Jayce . I couldnt take the feeling anymore , So I decided to take a walk , get some fresh air , A cup of coffee maybe .

After a quick walk and breath of fresh air , I decided to call Anthony to check on him , I realized I must have been a little to hard on him last night . His phone went straight to voicemail , I entered the Hospital grabbed a cup of coffee and headed back up to Aarons room , As I step off the elevator , and walk threw the waiting room , I Burned my tongue with the coffee , I was shocked at my view . It was My Parents at the Front Desk

Rj: Hey , Mom Dad

Patricia: Oh God Where is My Baby

Danny: Thats His Problem Now , BABY

Rj: Dad , Could you not He's in a Fragile Place

Danny: Being Fragile is what Got him in this Predicament Now

RJ: Despite that dad , he's in the hospital . Now isnt the time to be a Drill sergeant

Danny: I dont tell you how to raise Raiya Do I ?

Rj: No

Danny: Then Ok

Rj: Hey Dj you wanna take a Walk , To cafeteria , I heard they have good pancakes

Dj: Rj , Im 13 Now , I Know when your trying to distract me . And Plus I wanna hear Dad Chew Aaron Out


Dj laughed and walked towards the room , I almost forgot he wasnt my little Bother anymore , He was overly excited to hear this . I was the last to walk into the Room . My Mom was kissing and Hugging Aaron and My dad was just starting his legendary rants .

Danny: What the Hell did you get yourself Into Now . PUNK

Aaron: ..........

Danny: Boy Dont you hear me talking you , Because your Eye closed You cant speak . Hell Thats Probably what got you knocked on your ass in the first place .

Patricia: Danny

Rj: Dad do really have to go there , Right here right now

Danny: Hell Somebody gotta Do , Maybe we wouldnt be here

Rj: And you think yelling at him is going to somehow solve the Problem

Danny: Look Rj , I Agreed to let him come out here with you , only if you could keep him in Line and get him on the Right track , and apparently you failed at that , so your opinion doesnt really matter right now

RJ: And yours Do . Did you ever think The reason He acts out is because he's seeking something he's missing .

Danny: And what are you trying to get at Son ?

Rj: I Dont know a Father , Maybe if you spent less time trying to save the members of your church and focused on your family , you would have known that he didnt register for classes .

Danny: Look I Dont need your Advice on how to raise my Kids

Rj: Clearly you dont your doing a Great Job

Patricia: Boys !

Danny: You know what , Ive done everything to try and please you . But im not about to keep kissing your ass . If your still but hurt over what happened in the past then I dont know what to tell you .

Rj: Im Not Tripping over what happened between us . Im Just saying maybe you should get to know your kids rather than dictate them and lay on unreasonable expectations .

Danny: Your Right , Look at Meagan Shes good , Dj good , Hell you Your Good , But him , he's different Rj talking to him does nothing , You have to give him structure he cant handle making his own decisions . He's not mature , He's a follower He does what ever body around him does , Hes not like you and Meagan , he doesnt have his own mind . and that is why im so hard on him and stay up his ass . Cause thats what he Needs . Not someone to tell pet him and Baby him like you and your Mother .

Rj: Ok whatever you say

Danny: because im right you know im right , say what you want about how I raised you , But I did a damn good job , I might have went about it the wrong way , but I raised you to know right from Wrong

Aaron: AND HOW DID YOU RAISE ME HUH . By Blowing off everything I had because you were to busy with the Church , Or golfing with your Buddies . Huh Or telling me I wasnt Half as talented as RJ .

Danny: Watch your Mouth Boy

Aaron: NO , I dont even Know Why your Here . Im Fine as you can see . So You Can Go

Danny: Fine , Lets Go

Patricia: Were not leaving

Danny: Yes we are , You heard the Boy , he's fine , so lets go

Patricia: Im Not leaving My Baby like this

RJ: Can we Just calm Down , Nobody's going anywhere

Danny: I Am , You See this is what im talking about he has alot to learn , Sad thing is he thinks He Knows it all

Rj: Dad Can you Just calm down , I have a Car take you guys to house . You guys must be tired right ?

Dj: I Am

RJ: Ok , Well I call the Car , and They will Pick you Up , Anthony should be there so everything should be good . Ok ?

Danny: Whatever

Patricia: You Know Danny you could be so Immature at times .

Danny: Well you heard the Boy , Why Am I Here , Ok I'll leave


My Mom and dad went back and forth as they left the Room . I closed the Door behind them as I turned around I saw Tears Rolling Down Aaron's Face .

Rj: You Ok

Aaron: Why Would you Call them

Rj: What do you mean Why I call them ?

Aaron: I Didnt want them To Know , Especially Him . You Know How he Is

RJ: How was I suppose to know , You were passed out , High on Drugs and Beat within an inch of your life . What was I Suppose to Do .

Aaron: You made a Big Deal out of it . Now they Know and Im Embarressed

Rj: What are you embarrassed about

Aaron: Nothing Rj Just Drop it .


He wiped the few tears away from his face , and pulled the covers back and got out of bed . I Noticed a little hesitation in his movement . As his feet hit the ground his face was taken over by pain with each step he took . I Noticed his walk was different , It was almost like he was limping or it Hurt to walk . And Boom It Hit me like Mac Truck . NO I thought to myself Hell Naw . I Continued to watch him as he walked like ... Like Ugh I couldnt say it , But I felt it in my bones . He turned to closed the Door and looked at me, When My eyes meet his , I could tell he was reading me . He Knew exactly was I was thinking . I saw the realization in his eyes and He quickly broke the stare and tried to close the door . I quickly contracepted and put my foot between the door . I wasnt Sure if I Even wanted to admit that this was a thought . I just couldnt wrap my mind around that possibly happening to my little brother

Aaron: Move

Rj: ..........

Aaron: RJ Move

Rj: ......

Aaron: MOVE YOUR F***KING FOOT !

RJ: Aaron

Aaron: WHAT

Rj: What did they do to you . Did they.......

Aaron: NO

RJ: They Did , They .... they touched you

Aaron: Shut UP !

RJ: Im Sorry , Im So Sorry

Aaron: STOP IT

RJ: I Should have been there

Aaron: STOP IT , SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT THE F***K UP !


He stood there breathing hard , Poking his chest out like a Man , His fist were balled up . His chest filling with air and blowing out his mouth at a rapid pace . His face frowned as he squeezed with all his might to make a fist , It was like he was trying to display that he was a Man , that in some shape or form he had to prove it to me . At this point I was in Tears the thought had just become reality , He didnt have to say I Felt it , I saw it in his face . Slowly his breathing slowed down and his face started to relax his tight grip began to loosen . I saw the tears building , One by one they flowed out , with every tear his Posture change , he wasnt hard and Defensive his fist were no longer balled up , He started fighting to hold back the tears , and within seconds he burst into tears , I reached my arms out and slowly wrapped them around him . He broke down in my arms , He cried like nver seen before , it was hard for me to stay strong for him , I was so Hurt and Angry at myself for letting something so Horrible happen to my little brother on my watch . I Couldnt do anything , Say anything But Cry . I Held him tight in my arms telling him I would Kill Them , I was going to Kill them and Make them pay . Eventually he came to a point where he could tell me everything that happened . I was literally sick to my stomach , I was Beyond Piss , I wanted to Go directly to the Hood By the Baddest Semi automatic and go grand theft auto on them . After that he really didnt say much he just laid in his bed and looked out the window , even tho He knew I was there for him , I still felt like he was embarrassed to tell me what happened , and He had the right to feel that way , as a Straight man , Hell for anybody male or female , Shame comes with being rapped . The only thing I could do to make the situation better , is Figure out the Best way to get back at them . There was no way this was going to blow over , There must be Blood , an eye or an Eye Right .



Ant's POV


After Rj gave me the stiff arm I Figured that giving him space was the best thing for everybody . We all know how his temper can flair when he feels threatened , and me being in his face trying to calm him down would only upset him more . I planned on giving him enough space just to calm down , not enough to plan a counter attack , so I figured a few hours at the office would give him enough time . I had a few things to clean up anyway .

Ant: Come in you Sly Devil You

Amir: Im the Devil ? Check again

Ant: Whatever , So You ready

Amir: Ready as I'll ever Be

Ant: You Dont seem to excited to be releasing your First single in years

Amir: No I Am , I just hope this Works

Ant: It Will , Trust Me . Everything is going to work out just like we planned

Amir: it better , maybe it will take away some this guilt

Ant: You have no reason to be guilty

Amir: Yea , I do . I cant shake the feeling that I used him

Ant: You Didnt use him Amir . You Like kendrick Right ?

Amir: Of Course

Ant: Ok So whats the deal

Amir: the Big deal , is I Feel Like I used him like a Pawn in this whole Scheme

Ant: Its not a scheme

Amir: You Asked me to kiss him , so I can be outed . So we can sell Records sounds like a scheme to me

Ant: Well , Just coming out wouldnt have worked , Frank Ocean used that already , We needed the scandal the Picture to sell it . and thats exactly what we did .

Amir: Yet that does nothing to stop me from feeling like a snake

Ant: Look , You like him , and I know he likes you , If anything we just gave him a push in the right direction .

Amir: Now your spinning it like its a gift

Ant: I know you barely know me but I always have a tendency to go about doing the wrong way , Just add this to the long list . In his own words the Road to hell is paved with good intentions .

Amir: Im Lost

Ant: Me too , But I Kinda feel bad about the way our friendship ended , the least I could was meddle in his life one last time to make up for the bad taste left in our mouths .

Amir: You guys are weird , Friends the Enemy's , then secrete friends . I dont get it why not just apologize and make up , Clearly you care if your doing things like this .

Ant: Well Amir Im a Complicated person . I can never say what I feel , At least not when It needs to be said

Amir: Can I Just say that The few times kendrick and I Hung out . It seems like he really misses you guys .

Ant: Yea Well , If life was easy everybody would be happy

Amir: you know what will make me happy . If you Hurry and Upload the damn song to Itunes NOWWWW

Ant: Ok OK Ok , ItS Done . Its Official Be Bad is your First single .

I Quickly poured Amir and myself a drink and we toast to future success , and to mending fences . After Amir left I finished One more Drink since I knew the inlaws were in town , and headed home . Once I made it home I regretted not having that third drink cause the tension in the house was thick , I could tell the Ms Patricia and Danny were at Odds , Rj was still off to himself Aaron was asleep , the only normal one was Little danny and his face was glued to his cell phone . I figured that Rj might need a little more time to cool down so I went out back and sat by the Pool . About an hour and a half went by when I heard the slide door open , I turned around and it was Rj walking out towards me . He Just stood next to me looking at the pool . I Could tell he was heavily thinking , I looked up at him and saw the deep thought plastered on his face , I rubbed his arm and he looked down at me . I gave him a smile and he leaned down and kissed me on the head . He looked at me and gave me a smile , and thats when I knew something was up . He was too mad to all of a sudden have a smile . He tried to walk off but I grabbed his hand .

Ant: Where you going

Rj: Out for A While

Ant: Well I Wanna Go

Rj: Naw I Just wanna think to myself

Ant: you Been thinking since Last night

RJ: Look Ant

Ant: No you Look , I know what your up to . Your going to do something arent you

Rj: No

Ant: Dont lie to me Rj , I see It in your eyes , Your going after him arent you ,

RJ: Im going somewhere with Jermaine

Ant: Then Im going with you

Rj: No Your Not

Ant: Thas because Your Lying , Your going to Find Jayce arent you ? Arent you

RJ: what do you want me to say ?

Ant: I want you to tell me the truth , look at me and tell me the Truth

Rj: Ok , Im going to Find him , and im going to F***k him Up . Im going to make him Sorry for every looking at Aaron

Ant: You Cant do that

Rj: I can , And I Will

Ant: I cant let you do that . You Promised me you wouldnt do anything that would get taken away from me . You Promised you wouldnt leave me . And if I let you go after him , I know thats whats going to happen .

Rj: ............

Ant: What im about to say is about to sound real selfish , but You warned him Ample times . Over and Over again , and he didnt listen . I hate to say it But he brought this on himself . And Now your going to do something that you will regret for the rest of your life . Over his Antics . Its not worth it

RJ: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY DID TO HIM


He stormed off , leaving the house . Maybe I shouldn't have said it was harsh , But it was true , Aarons antics werent only affecting his life but everybody else , My Husband had a temper like no other , Whenever he felt like somebody he loved was in danger he lashed out like a Mad man , I know he was using the term Kill lightly but For some reason I felt like he was going to kill jayce , and there was nothing I could do . My nerves were so shot that I needed something to take the edge off so I snuck into Rj's man Cave and found his weed stash . For over an hour I Puffed and Sipped on a Blunt and Liquor , Not knowing the future of my marriage or anything at this point , It just felt like my life was all over the place , I couldnt get a hold on anything , nothing was normal or predictable , everything just seemed Different . As im sitting there contemplating my stoned thoughts , I hear the door open , I look up and see Rj standing in the door . He walked into the room sat down and took the blunt from my hand . I just laid on the floor looking at him trying to read his body language did he do it ? Did he fight him , did he confront him , I couldnt make out anything and the constant weed smoke wasnt helping either .

Ant: Soooooooo How did go

Rj: It Didnt

Ant: Thank God

Rj: I Couldnt go threw with it , I Couldnt find it in myself to cause anymore harm . What good would it make if I was to find Jayce and do what I wanted ? I wouldnt be around then to protect you , protect him . I Just couldnt

Ant: And you know that takes a Man to do the right thing , its easy to flash out and lose control , but it takes a real man to take the high road , Focus on being there for his family rather than Jeopardizing it .

Rj: I Just couldnt get what you said out of my head .

Ant: So you do hear me when you in that state mind

RJ: All the time , I Just choose to ignore you

Ant: Oh its like that Lol

RJ: Who told you told you smoke my weed anyway

Ant: Well when I was preparing to hear you were arrested for assault or worse murder . I needed something to ease my mind. But now that I Know its all over and we can call it even . Im good

RJ: call it even ? No No No I didnt retaliate , But I did speak with the FbI and they are launching a case . I Might cant physically hurt them , but The F.B.I Will .

Ant: Ya See that should have been your first move anyway . A Fist will hurt for an hour . but a 20 year bid will hurt for well 20 years

RJ: Hopefully Justice will be served . and We can Move on

Ant: Speaking of moving on , Somebody's turning 25 next week

Rj: Who Me

Ant: Yea you and Since all of this is over , we are really having the party Now

Rj: Mmmm I Dont know I dont know if I want to have a party , Everything just so Hectic

Ant: All the More reason to Have fun , Everybody gonna be here . Raiya

Rj: I do miss her

Ant: Exactly so , everybody can get dressed up like the Great Gatsby , and Have a Blast .

Rj; Ok , But only cause I really want raiya to Come out , since she started school she cant visit as often

Ant: She's so cute, I bet we would have beautiful babies .

Rj: too Bad

Ant: What if there was like some way they can mix our genes together and then implant them in someone

Rj: This Is why you Cant smoke with me Lol

Ant: Lol Because I want a Baby with you ?

RJ: Do you , You want a Baby with me

Ant: Yep

RJ: then Lets make One


He got down on the floor with me , and got on top of me . I could see the Freak in his eyes , I knew I was about to be left with a few Carpet Burns tonight .