Dolan Twins Imagines

how you gonna [g]

word count: 811 words

the song is originally by tyrese but this version is a remix by sydney renae. it's amaaazing. listen to it above 👆

[26th august 2017]

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if i could go back to the day we met, i would probably do it all over again.

you stood in front of grayson with your mouth slight agape. this is your first time seeing him after 4 months. he never told you why he left, where he went, who he went with. he just left you. "you know what? if i could go back to the day we met, i'd most likely do it all over again because there's no way i can let you hurt me like that again."

and i would choose not to be your friend, when you ask me i'll just say i got a man

"when you ask me to be your girlfriend or to go on a date, i'll say i already have a man. that way you can't hurt me." you said accusingly, crossing your arms over your chest. grayson stared at you in shock. he didn't expect to see you for a long time.

it wouldn't be no dates, it would be no staying late at my house, it would be no watching movies on my couch.

"we wouldn't go on any dates, you wouldn't stay at my house till 12am, we wouldn't watch movies on my couch." you continued and with every word, you'd step closer to grayson. he didn't say or do anything but stare at you.

shit went left, and i'm just trying to figure out. said you'd always be my baby then you bounced.

"i'm just trying to figure out how you could say that you'd always be mine but then you left. not a single note, message, voicemail. nothing. i had to come back to half a house." you said sadly as you remembered the day you returned home, only to see that none of grayson's clothes were in the wardrobe, his shoes were gone, his laptops and cameras and his stuff from the bathroom. everything was gone.

hos you gonna up and leave like that? when i gave you all i had.

"how could you just get up and leave like that when i gave you everything i had. how grayson?" you asked and stopped in front of him. you were almost chest to chest but you stopped before you were touching. he looked down at you with a pained look, regretting everything he'd ever done to you.

i gave you the real me. told you all my feelings. and you just gonna turn around and front like you don't feel me.

"i gave you the real me. i told you everything about me, my feelings and my life but you're just gonna act like you don't love me anymore? if you even loved me to begin with..." you said quietly making his eyes widen and begin to shake his head in protest but you held up a hand to stop him. it was too late for his 'i love you's'. he should've said them when you needed to hear them.

i put that on my life that i ain't see this coming. opened up my heart i should have never let you come in.

"i swore that i never saw it coming. i never thought that you could do that to someone. i opened up my heart to you and i should've never let you come in." you said, feeling absolute sadness for yourself. you've gone through a lot in the span of 4 months.

but i wish you well though. that's all i could tell you. maybe in your next life you'll find everything you wanted.

"you know what i hate, though? like, most of all? that i still hope you do well in life. i still hope that you find everything you've ever wanted." your eyes began to well up with tears and you stared up at the man you used to love.

i never thought that loving you would cause me pain. i'll never put a man before myself again.

"i never and i mean never knew that loving you could cause me so much pain. this, whatever it is or was," you spat, your finger pointing to yourself and him, "has taught me to never put a man before myself again."

you should have told that you was uncertain. this ain't what i want and this ain't working.

with a sudden boost of anger, you shoved him back harshly making him lose his balance. your breathing was ragged and you couldn't stop the tears from falling, "why didn't you tell me that we weren't working out and that it wasn't what you want. why? it would've hurt much less than coming home to nothing and wondering what i did wrong for 4 months."