✨L I F E G O E S O N✨

🍁I miss her🍁

11th July 2012
It is already 1 o'clock. I'm in the dance room practicing a new dance. This dance is really complicated. Honestly I don't think I'll sleep much today.
It's around 3 a.m. I go to the bus stop. I almost missed the bus. Then I get out of the bus and walk home. When I walk in the door I hear sobs. I think it's Maya or Areum, so I go to their room. I knock on Areum and Maya's room. Maya opens the door for me. She gives me space to come in. As I enter I can see Areum sitting on the bed. She is crying.

Me: Areum what's going on?

Areum: I miss my parents.

She is sobbing. I understand her. She is only 10 years old and lives without her family. That must be hard. I was also only 10 years old when I moved. It wasn't easy for me to live without my mother either. However, Yujin helped me. It's a new city, new environment, new school, new people, new schedule, and new everyday life. Basically everything is new. At the very beginning it was okay. Because of the excitement and hustle and bustle, I was constantly distracted and I hardly missed my mother. But when you calm down and think about it for 1-2 hours, you finally notice that you miss something or someone.

Me: It's okay. I felt the same way. I also moved away when I was 10. It's okay to cry about it. But maybe you should focus more on your time here. It will never be easy. If you fail an audition, you have to go back home. Remember how proud your parents would be if you could tell them, "Look, I'm on TV" or "I'm so self-employed. I achieved all of my goals and dreams through hard work. And all alone. ". You have to do your best. Focus on that. Don't focus on the downsides of being here. Okay?

She nod.

Areum: Thank you.

I just smiled. It's already 4 am. I usually get up at this time. That means no sleep today. :(

Me: You should go to bed now and sleep another hour.

Areum: And you? Did you sleep?

Me: * chuckle * No I haven't. But that's okay. I'll sleep all the better tomorrow.

Maya: Wow. You are really positive minded.

It's a good thing she just knows me for a week. She doesn't know that I'm actually depressed.

Me: Well I'm not. I'm just optimistic.