24th June 2012 I have an hour off right now. I sit on the floor and sketch something. Then I notice someone sitting down next to me on the floor. I look up and see Yoongi. Is he alone? Where are Hoseok and Seokjin? Yoongi doesn't look at me. He seems to have poor eye contact. Instead, he looks at my sketch. He seems to be impressed. I continue sketching. Neither of us say anything. He's just watching me.
This is the sketch: (these pictures are not mine. They are from Pinterest)
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Yoongi: Wow, that's impressively good. Where did you learn to draw like that?
Me: Nowhere. I just started drawing when I felt like it.
Yoongi: I see.
Then there is silence again for a few minutes. I know that he wants to say something because looks in all directions as if he is looking for suitable words. He hesitates a little.
Yoongi: Do you always draw that sort of thing? So depressed, sad and kind of frightened ...
Me: Well too. This is just a sketch. I draw these when I'm not feeling well. It's really calming. And when I'm just bored or want to paint or draw, I tend to like dreamy things like these.
I said and took out my drawing from last night.
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Yoongi: Wow. The picture gives me a cozy feeling.
Why am I talking so much all at once? I don't usually do that either. But with Yoongi it's different. I trust him. Wait!? Am I doing that? Is that right? What if he's just like my dad? Mean, cold, manipulative and nice from the outside. I just hope not.
Me: Right. Me too. Tell me. What do you actually want to become? A singer?
Yoongi: rapper, you?
Me: Me too. I've been writing songs since I was 7. It's like a diary. I can also express my feelings better.
Yoongi: Really? Can i see it
I showed him my book. He read a few pages. Then he came to a page where I wrote a song about my past. I closed it quickly and took it away from him.
Me: I'm sorry, but this page is a little more personal.
Yoongi: Oh okay. I have to go. It was nice to talk to you.
Me: Yes, I think so too.
Then he left. And I kept drawing until my break was over.
