BTS Angsts

Jung Hoseok - I'm fine (Pt.2)

<Your Pov>
The day continued as per normal. Once the first two classes were over, you went out for break, taking a book with you to read. You walked out and made your way to the library. It was too cold outside so you read quietly in the library for the whole of break time. You went back to class once the bell rang and was greeted by your English teacher, whom was also your year level co-ordinator. It was kind of weird as you didn't have English till later, but you went along with it. "Hello (Y/N)" She said with a smile. "Hello.." You mumbled quietly, before trying to walk past her and to your desk. But she stayed in her place and proceeded to speak again. "May I talk to you in my office for a second?" She asked. You knew you didn't have a choice, although you did not want to, you nodded and followed her out the door. "Have a seat." She said politely once you reached her office, closing the door behind her and taking a seat in front of you. "So (Y/N), I was just checking in to see how things are. Several of your classmates and teachers have showed concerns about you. What's been going on?" She asked. You bit your lip, as tears filled your eyes. Thoughts of your argument with Hoseok earlier on raced through your mind. You were able to fight back the tears and just shook your head, forcing a smile on your face. "Nothing's wrong. I'm fine." You said, trying to sound the slightest bit joyful. Your teacher raised an eyebrow but you quickly looked away, avoiding her gaze. You both stayed quiet for a while until she spoke up. "(Y/N), you know if there's anything we have counsellors here to support you, I know your friends will as well." You nodded and forced another smile once again. "Alright, you may go back to class now." She said, getting up and opening the door for you. "Thank you." You said as you left and she gave you a smile back, although there was a look of concern in her eyes. You went back to class and continued with what everyone else was doing.

{Time Skip}
Lunch eventually rolled by and you went back to the library to get started on some homework to reduce the amount you'd have to do that night. On the way up the stairs, you tripped and dropped your books on the floor, along with your glasses. "Damn it" You mumbled as you picked them up and wiped the lenses. You put your glasses back on and proceeded to pick up your books only to realise that they had already been collected. A familiar figure stood in front of you. It was Hoseok. His eyes had the same concerning look as your teacher even though his mouth had formed into a half smile. "Thanks Hoseok.." You said before taking your books from him. "No problem (Y/N)..." He said in a quiet voice. It was unusual, he was normally loud and beaming. "I-is something wrong?" You stuttered. He sighed and looked down, before walking past you down the stairs. "What?" You thoughts as you quickly made your way into the library, placing your books down onto the table and taking out your phone. "What's wrong Hoseok?" You texted him, with shaky hands. He replied almost immediately. "When are you going to stop pretending that you're fine?" His message made you confused but you replied back anyway. "I'm fine, I'm not pretending." You waited patiently for his response. "Fine. Whatever. I can't insist anymore, I'm just trying to help." You were hurt once you read his message, so you didn't reply and tried to continue with your homework, but thoughts of the recent conversation sparked in your mind. You dropped your pencil on the table and put your head in you hands, tears streaming down your cheeks slowly, a familiar thought coming into your mind:

"When will I ever be fine?"