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Jung Hoseok - I'm fine

<Your Pov>
It was another rainy Monday morning. You got up and sighed as you pulled on your uniform and checked your school bag ensuring you had everything. The gloomy day only increased the sadness you'd been feeling over the past few days, but you hadn't told anyone. Recently you'd been feeling down about yourself. Your own reflection made you angry as you hated the way you were. "So worthless and stupid" You thought.  Last night you had broken a mirror whilst staring at your reflection, tears rolling down your cheeks. Everything was starting to bottle up, but you didn't bother expressing it in anyway, as you knew once you broke down, you wouldn't be able to get back up again for a while. Instead you kept your head down, keeping quiet and not drawing attention to yourself. The occasional smile here and there was enough to make people believe you were okay, when in reality you weren't. You quickly ate your breakfast before heading out the door to catch the bus. Your black umbrella gripped tightly in your hand as you faced the cold wind along with the grey clouds and heavy rain. You boarded the bus and sat down, taking out your phone. There was a message from your best friend Hoseok. "Good morning (Y/N)! I'll see you at school :)" You quickly replied back: "Morning Hoseok, see you then :)". Your good morning messages were a usual thing so it wasn't much of a change. You rummaged through your bag and brought out your earphones, immersing yourself in ballad songs. The bus started moving and you stared out the window, daydreaming about what today would be like.

[At School]
You arrived at school and made your way to your locker. The hallway was empty as many students would take the later bus. Unlocking your locker you placed your bag inside before sitting on the floor taking out your phone once again to change the song. Suddenly you heard a familiar voice only a few metres away. "Hi (Y/N)!!!" Hoseok beamed as he walked towards you happily. You showed a half smile. "Hey Hoseok. You're early today." You replied as he sat next to you. "Yeah! Ahaha!" He chuckled, making his dimple appear. "So, how are you today?" He asked whilst making direct eye contact. "I'm fine. How about you?" Hoseok's expression dropped and he looked concerned. "You're not fine (Y/N)." He said in a serious voice. You paused for a moment before speaking up again. "Yes, I am. It's okay. I really am fine." You said. Hoseok shook his head with disappointment and took a deep breath. You began to grow annoyed but tried your best to control it. "Stop saying that you're fine when you're not." Hoseok stated, his voice raising slightly. At that point you'd had enough. "What do you want me to say then?! That I'm not fine!? I don't know Hoseok, maybe I'm so reluctant to tell you that I'm not fine, in fear that you have your own problems and you're pushing them away to deal with the ones that I have! That's been the case this whole entire time!" Hoseok seemed taken back by your outburst and you just looked away, tears threatening to spill from your eyes. "(Y/N) I..." He began, but didn't finish his sentence due to the school bell ringing."Just don't worry about me Hoseok, it doesn't matter..." You said before standing up, locking your locker, and walking past Hoseok making your way to your first class. You sat down next to one of your friends and waited patiently for the teacher, not saying a word. "Hey (Y/N), are you alright?" Your friend asked. You turned to face them and nodded before replying:

"I'm fine."