Raura:Maybe this time

Chapter 17

Laura's POV:What am I going to do? What am I going to tell them.The only person who knows about Nick is Ross and Riker the rest of them don't know about him not even Rydel.It's just that I don't want to feel needy I mean they all ready helped me through so much I don't want to put any pressure on them."Are you okay Laura? You look like you want to say something whatever it is you can tell me." Rydel assures me I take a deep breath "You remember how I told you my husband is in the hospital?" she gives me a look and laughs "Husband? You got to be kidding me Laura." I shake my head
"I wish I was Dels.Well,he woke up from his coma." she gives me a confused look "Coma? Oh,Laura I'm so happy for you."She gives me a hug "My problem is though I don't know how to say it to the rest of them that I have to leave the tour." I sigh and look at the boys watching tv and goofing around "I think I know what this is about.I'll talk to mom and dad and the others but I'll let you tell him.He's going to find out eventually." I sigh once again as I see Rydel go up to Stormie and Mark they kindly nod their heads at me and give me a smile of assurance then she goes to the guys "Guys,Laura needs to talk to Ross.Let's just stay here." she joins them and talks to them when Ross approaches me "What's up?" he asks me and sits next to me I take a deep breath and turn to face him I grab his hand as he looks me in the eyes he holds mine tightly I could feel the chills inside me tears start to form as I get that same old feeling I always got when we touched I can't believe I need to say goodbye I saw this coming one way or another though it's now or never.

Just tell him Laura."Laur,It's okay.Whatever you need to say just say it." I shake my head "That's exactly the point.The fact that I can't say it.But..You need to know.Ross,... I have to leave tour.Nick's awake and I want to see how he's doing." he takes his hand away "Oh..I see.I understand." he gets up and walks away and goes back to the others Rydel comes and sits by me "So..How'd he take it?" she asks I let the tears out "I don't know what to do Dels.I mean half of me feels like he understands the other half..I don't know it's really hard to explain." she makes a face "Are you sure its him who doesn't understand or you.You can't deny your heart Laura." I shake my head "I know where your going with this but rather my heart is okay with it or not this is something I did.Nick has helped me so much I can't do this to him.I do love Ross but I can't let what I feel about him get in the way of how I feel about Nick.I just can't afford to be that kind of person." the bus stops Stomie goes up to me "This is your stop.I just wanted to let you know it was an honor having you open for them.I hope you said your goodbyes and I hope we see each other again." she pulls me into a squeeze

I let a few tears go "I'm going to miss you guys to." I say all the guys stand and give me a group hug "I'll go with you to check in." Ross tells me I nod and smile "Yeah." Rydel pulls me into a hug "I'm going to miss you girly.In fairness at least we can still text and look at our fabulous pics.Oh like this one?"she shows me a pic where we were doing silly faces and all the boys were rolling their eyes I chuckle "That was classic.I'm really going to miss you Dels.Thanks,for everything." I hug her again "Same here.If you need anything you know what to do." she says I nod and take my stuff as me and Ross go inside I turn to him "I can take it from here." I assure him he nods "I should get back." he tells me I start to make my way to the front counter when he grabs my arm he turns me around and kisses me I kiss him back I  missed this so much I miss us so much.He cups my face and our foreheads touch "I love you so much don't forget that." I tell him and go in for one more hug a tear goes down my check he wipes it "Promise.I love you to." he tells me before he lets go we both go in for one last hug and I make my way to the counter I turn around one last time to catch a glimpse of him getting on the tour bus and driving away.I slightly smile "Nick Richardson please." I tell the lady behind the counter "Room 301." She responds I go in the elevator and go up to Nick's room I knock on the door for it to be opened by a lady a bit older than me with a baby "May I help you?" she says a bit harshly "I'm here to see Nick." I tell respond she looks at me head to toe "Nathalie,It's okay let her come in." I hear Nick say from his bed she steps back and rolls her eyes at me I let it go and make my way to Nick "Laura.What brings you here?" he asks dumbfounded

"Why else would I be here? When the hospital called I hurried here right away.Are you okay?" I ask him "Oh,He's fine honey.He's been in good hands.But excuse me for asking who are you?" she asks me is she serious? "I'm his-" "Cousin my cousin Laura.Laura this is my wife Natalie." he says as he cuts me off "Excuse me? Cousin seriously Nick? I think I know what's going on here." I say and stand up he grabs my arm "Where are you going?" he asks with a smile I pull my arm away "Anywhere else but here.I can't believe you.Do you know how much I gave up just to be here?" I say he laughs

"Natalie leave us for a moment." he tells her she leaves the room with the baby "What's funny? None of this is funny!" I tell him "Laura,Laura,Laura.You don't get it do you? I don't love you I never did.I knew you were just using me for my money.But you were all begging oh merry me Nick my mom is in the hospital and we have no money to pay for our bills.Ha.I tried to love you but clearly you still love him more.It's over Laura the deals off now get lost.Go!" he tells me tears were going down my face "Fine.If that's what you want." I tell him and go out on my way out someone grabs my arm Natalie she turns me around and laughs in my face "I guess loves not for everyone huh? Stay away from my husband." she threatens tightening her grip on my arm I struggle out of her grip and got lose "You don't need worry about me he's all yours." I say and run to the elevator and make my way to the main lobby and run out the double doors I find a bench and cry my eyes out it I can't believe I did this to myself.I'm such an idiot.I'm scared I don't know what to do.I suddenly feel warm arms around me I shiver and shake for a second before I looked up and saw who it was at that moment I knew I was safe I tightly hold on to him and let everything I was feeling at the moment out.

"What about the tour?" I ask him weekly "Shh..That's not important right now." he tells me and kisses my forehead and hugs me once again "But Ross your fans..."I say he cups my face I get lost in his eyes "Would want me to do what makes me happy and this is my happiness right here." he slowly leans in and kisses me I kiss back we stay like that for a moment I look back at him then look down "You don't have to do this you know.Don't let me stop you from living your life." I state he holds my hand "Laur,Your my life.Their is no other place I'd wish to be then with you right now.With that said let's go home." he reaches out his hand and we interlock fingers and head to the tour bus.