Daisy (Part I & II)

Chapter 22 - Missing

Shit. Shit. Shit. I should be in trouble not her.

"AFTER ALL THAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW HOW DO YOU TWO HAVE THE AUDACITY TO JUST UP AND LEAVE AND NOT ANSWER YOUR FUCKING PHONE! I DONT ASK FOR MUCH BUT FOR GODSAKE WHAT HAPPENED TO THE ASK BEFORE GOING OUT RULE. HUH? DID YOU JUST FORGET ABOUT IT?" He yells, now directing his rage towards Daisy.

She's now uncontrollably crying and shaking.

"James stop yelling at her." I try to tell him.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP XANDER! YOU KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT FUCKING WAS AND YOU LEFT ANYWAYS!"

I hear Daisy's labored breaths. Shit. I turn to her and then look to the others in panic. "Daisy go to your room." I softly tell her. She nods and bolts upstairs.

I stand up and get right in James face. "Nice job you just yelled at the one fucking person who matters most."

He snaps out of his rage and looks at the stairs Daisy went up. He goes to move around me but I block his path.

"Leave her alone. She already had a rough night. Don't need to make things worse," I spit at him. "What happened to never raising your voice infront of her? Huh? Nice going man."

"Xander stop." Henry starts.

"NO! You have a problem with last night you blame me, the driver, the one in charge. Don't blame Daisy for just needing some space from this fucking house."

"What happened last night?" Noah asks.

"She had a panic attack, really bad I almost called 911. She's not doing well mentally. We were thinking she was healing but she's not. She was already on the fucking edge last night and this morning, and to top it all of you lost your shit infront of her."

They all look pained. I walk away and head to my room. I'm too worked up to comfort Daisy at the moment.

"You're grounded. No driving." James booming voice stops me in my tracks.

"I don't give a Shit."

I quickly walk away and head for the shower. I need to clear my mind.

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Daisy

James yelled. He's so mad at me. He won't hurt me.

He can't.

Right?

I pace around my room trying to keep my shaking and crying down to a minimum but I can't.

I made him mad. He's mad because of me.

I've never seen him so angry before and it terrifies me.

I go to lie down on my bed and try and calm down.

It doesn't work.

I messed up I should've never left the house. I broke a rule. He was so angry that I broke a rule. What will happen when he comes to give me my punishment.

I cry until I can't cry anymore. I then hear three knocks on my door. I don't make an effort to move. Fear replaces my sadness as he is finally here to punish me.

I hear footsteps reach my bed and sit down. I flinch at that. I am so scared at the moment.

"Daisy." James whispers softly and almost regretfully. "I am so sorry, I was so scared that you were gone again that I took my anger out on you. Even though it wasn't your fault."

All rationality has left my brain.

He's just saying that so I could trust him again, but he will still hurt me.

It's like my brain has shut off that this is James. Not Mark or Margaret. James would never hurt me, but he looked a lot like Margaret while screaming at me.

I cry and cover my head waiting for the impact. I hear him draw in a sharp breath at my actions.

"Daisy... I am not going to hurt you... I'm not mad anymore." He sounds like he's on the verge of crying.

"What's my punishment?" I sob. I just want to get to the point.

"No... no punishment Daisy I won't hurt you." He says in a shaky voice.

"I broke a rule please just get it over with." I hysterically cry. I can't take this.

"Daisy look at me." He whispers. When I don't he puts his fingers under my chin. I flinch at that but he continues holding my chin up. I look at him and see he has tears falling from his eyes. Why though? "I would never ever hurt you Daisy. I won't ever give you a punishment. And I will never yell at you the way I did again. You didn't deserve my wrath, it was not your fault. I promise you with my whole heart that it will never happen again... plus I am big brother James who gives you hugs all day long." He chuckles at the end.

The rationality is back in my head now. Why did I think James was them? Why did I think he would hurt me?

I hold out my pinky. "Promise?" He interlocks our pinky's.

"Promise." He mumbles. I look at his teary eyes and wipe them away.

"Don't cry." I tell him.

"I couldn't help it I scared my baby." He hangs his head low. I crawl over to his lap and give him a big hug.

"Still, don't cry." He nods and hugs me tight. So tight that I barely get enough oxygen but I don't care.

"What happened last night Daisy?" He asks me after awhile.

I sigh. "I had a bad nightmare, I threw up and I wanted to get out of my room so I went downstairs to look at the snow. I started thinking and then I had an anxiety attack. Xander helped me. We had hot chocolate and watched a movie but I got hungry so he took me out to have chicken nuggets and then we ate at the lake. It was pretty. We ate in the backseat and then I cuddled him and we both fell asleep. I didn't mean to make you guys upset." I ramble.

"It's alright I'm not upset anymore. What were you thinking of baby?" He asks while stroking my hair and planting kisses on my forehead.

"Uhm..." my lip starts to wobble. "I feel like I'll never escape them. I mean I can't sleep, I can't get yelled at, I can't look at myself, I-"

"What do you mean you can't look at yourself?"

"The scars James. The constant reminder that I was abused that I was tortured. I can't leave that stupid basement." I cry.

"Oh baby. Look at your body and remind yourself that you are beautiful and strong. I know it's hard but you have to try. I am so proud of how far you've come, I love you."

"Love you too James."

"I know that didn't help but just know you can talk to me about it anytime."

I nod and drift off onto his shoulder.

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