OhmFluke A Day

07 April 2021

DeanPharm

After what happened yesterday, Pharm felt like half of his heart is missing.

But he knew he needed to do this. For his future.

Their future.

He knows it kills him and P'Dean but he feels like what he's doing is right.

Do they love each other because of them or because of Korn and In?

What had happened traumatised him.

It made him confused with his feelings.

He was thankful that P'Dean understood him. He didn't question his decisions.

And now here he is, laying on his bed on a Saturday, alone.

He's gotten used to having P'Dean besides him that his body is feeling a bit cold.

The plan last night was for P'Dean to have a sleepover because they're supposed to visit P'Ahn today.

But the plan is no longer in action after what happened.

Unconsciously, he felt his eyes watered.

"I miss you P'Dean."

Minutes later he was full on sobbing his heart out. "W—What am I doing? I need him. I need P'Dean!"

"P'Dean!"

Pharm was about to bolt out of his bed when the door to his condo burst open and a figure who was obviously panting appeared.

"N'Pharm!"

"P'Dean!" Dean ran towards the bed and took the smaller male into his arms.

Pharm returning the hug with an equal strength of longing.

"N'Pharm, breath. I'm here. I'm here, my good boy. Shh...Shhh..." The third year whispered towards his lover who was still sobbing.

Pharm buried his face on Dean's chest. Crying his heart out.

They've been away for not more than 10 hours but it felt like they haven't seen each other for 10 years.

"I'm sorry P'Dean. I'm sorry. I don't want to let go. I'm sorry." He chants again and again.

Dean keeps on leaving kisses on top of the junior's head. Whispering sweet nothing, consoling him.

It took him nearly an hour before Pharm was calm.

Now with Dean sitting on the bed, back against the headboard. Pharm is still sniffling, snuggling to his nape of neck, sitting on top of Dean's lap.

Arms around each other's

"It's okay now, Pharm. Phi is here." He repeated again and again.

Pharm nodded, tightening his hold on his lover.

"I miss you, P'Dean."

"Phi miss you too. So much."

"Pharm is sorry P'Dean."

"Don't be sweetheart. It's not your fault."

Pharm pulled away to look at Dean's face. "I—I thought what we have was a lie. I thought it wasn't us. B—But I was wrong. I felt like I was dying P'Dean. M—My heart was broken. It's missing its other half." He said softly, eyes brimming with tears again.

Dean smiled and wiped the unshed tears before leaving a soft kiss on Pharm's forehead.

"Me too Pharm. I almost went crazy. I didn't want to come. I wanted to respect your decision but— But it feels like you're calling for me. Like I need to be here. At first I ignored it but as time went on the feeling grew stronger."

The pair looked at each other before a small smile began appearing on their faces.

Pharm leaned closer, resting his forehead on Dean's.

"I love you P'Dean. Thank you for coming back."

"I love you too, my good boy. I'll never let go again."

"Me too."

—End—

My take on the separation part.