August 5, 1997
All yesterday I was tempted to go visit Hannah, but my father insisted that I work with Bellatrix on smaller things so that I can expand.
I just wanted to torture Hannah to death, but no, I wasn't allowed.
I had to start like Draco had, gradually getting better at the spells until both my father and Bellatrix thought it would be a good idea for me to move on.
Draco, Bellatrix and I were currently standing on in the field we came on to practice normally.
I held my wand out in front of me, pointing it at the trees ahead, waiting for an animal to come trudging out.
My arm was becoming tired and I felt as if I wanted to scream. We've been out here for hours.
"Come on." I murmured, underneath my breath.
Just as I let out a huff of frustration, a small grey rabbit popped out of the trees.
I took this to my advantage. "Crucio!"
A swarm of green light flashed out of my wand. The rabbit got hit quickly and must've felt a pinch of terror. It didn't even last long.
I could tell it didn't last because the flare of green light had gone and the rabbit had ran away, terrified.
"Fuck!" I screamed. I ran my hands though my curled hair in stress.
Bellatrix scowled. "Come on! It isn't that hard. You have to mean it, Riddle. Mean it!"
"What do you think I've been trying to do!" I hissed at her.
"You're not trying hard enough! You have to focus if you want to do it!" She snapped right back at me, blowing a stray, black curl from her eyes as she said it.
I turned, pointing my wand back up to the forest.
"It's fine, Y/N. I'm sure you'll get it." Draco scoffed, amused at the situation.
He was kind of angry with me already as he's been trying to talk to me about my birthday present and how I was oh so excited to now have it.
His wand was pointed to the forest too. His usually clean swept, platinum blonde hair was now messy down his face.
We had been forced to duel earlier and I had knocked him off of his feet with a powerful stunner.
I held my wand at point, staring in depth at the forest ahead.
Why was I wasting time on this rubbish?
I wanted to attack Hannah. I'll really mean it then.
"I'm disappointed in you both," Bellatrix spat at Draco and I. She circled us like a vulture. "You both should be well trained by now. You should both at least know how to do the Cruciatus Curse!"
"What if I told you I've already done it?" I snapped my head around, blood boiling in my veins.
Bellatrix laughed so hard she had to hold her clothed kneecaps. "Yeah- and who would - who would that be then?"
"Ginny Weasley," I replied coldly and truthfully. "You were wondering why I had a fucking concussion; it's because that ridiculous brother of hers knocked me off my feet for torturing her."
Draco's grey eyes widened, but he kept his composure.
"A Weasley?" She laughed. "The girl?"
"Yes, the one who's rumored to be snogging Potter himself, actually." I stated matter-of-factly.
I stared into her eyes. Her cold, chocolate brown ones staring back at me in manic.
"Liar." She seethed through her stained black teeth.
My lip curled and then an idea passed through my mind. "Oh yeah?"
Bellatrix nodded and crossed her arms impatiently.
I scoffed and turned to the forest, I crept slowly and quietly towards the cluster of tall trees and leaves.
My wand out in front of me, pointing it at the trees. I paused, hearing rustling.
I was flustered and furious. From Bellatrix not having faith in my abilities, to being out here for over an hour without any progress and finally, my boiling hatred for Hannah Abbott recoiled.
I felt my lip tremble with anger and my right hand clamp tighter around my wand. I was so ratted with fury, that my hand shook.
Then, I heard more rustling. I stopped and my eyes darted to the trees.
A radiant deer came trotting out, picking at the leaves.
I could feel the anger flooding me once more and screamed loudly. "Crucio!"
The deer looked stunned by the sudden shout but couldn't get away in time. The green light reflected in its big eyes and hit it aggressively in the chest.
It knocked to the floor, writhing on its back side.
I heard Bellatrix cackling behind me as I held the spell and made my way closer and closer to the tortured deer.
A loud, sharp, ear penetrating scream rang through my ears and it only took me a moment to realize that it was coming from the creature I was torturing.
It was breathing hard and wailing.
A smirk came upon my face and I pulled my wand upwards, unleashing the deer from the spell.
"Amazing!" Bellatrix squealed excitedly. "Now, kill it!"
I swallowed thickly. The words rang in my ears.
Kill it.
'It's just a deer' I thought.
I took a deep breath and pointed my wand back up at the creature. I'd be putting it out of it's misery.
My face scrunched up and I felt a thick sense of pressure.
Then I pulled it together.
I took a deep breath, hearing the deer whimper one last time.
"Avada Kedavra." I said, blankly.
The bright green light illuminated in my eyes as it hit the creature.
It twitched.
But it's breathing became heavier.
Confused, I turned to Bellatrix. "Why isn't it dead?" I asked her.
She scoffed and rolled her eyes, walking closer. Once she got as close as she could to the deer, she bent down.
She ran her hand along the deer's fur then picked her hand off of it, looking at it repulsively. "Filthy creatures."
Bellatrix smirked and pulled out her wand. She caressed it with pride and looked at the innocent creature in disgust.
Then she rose her head, staring down at the deer. She raised her wand too. "Avada Kedavra." She muttered heartlessly.
Another green light hit the deer in the chest and this time, the ragged breaths it took in before had stopped.
Bellatrix smirked at the -- now -- dead deer and stood up. "Pity." She glinted.
I gave the deer one last look and walked back over to where we had practiced before.
"Good Cruciatus Curse, but, that will hardly do anything if you don't practice the others," Bellatrix sneered and rolled her eyes. "I'm going back up to the Manor, I have to talk to Cissy."
She turned away, starting to run up the hill.
Merlin, this woman is mad.
"What do we do then?" I yelled after her.
She stopped abruptly and turned around. "Practice." She hissed. '
Fuck, she was going to leave me alone with Draco.
He was going to ask me questions.
An interrogation. Ugh.
And I was right too, because as soon as Bellatrix's manic self had disappeared from sight, Draco asked. "What the fuck was that all about?"
I turned to him and just stared, waiting for him to criticize me.
"Was that a lie? No way did you actually torture Ginny Weasley. How on Earth did you manage to do that to that- that deer? And most of all, what has gotten into you?" All of his feelings rushed out at once.
I scowled. "Yes, I did torture Ginny Weasley and as for your deer question, anger Draco. Anger. I'm pissed, that's what's gotten into me. To many damn people have taken advantage of me and I'm done!"
"I thought you hated this, being a Death Eater." He shook his head.
"I did. Now, I'm growing quite fond of it." I raised my eyebrows at him.
His tongue rolled around the inside of his cheek.
"Draco?" I questioned. "Do you want to be a Death Eater?"
"No," he replied. "But I have to keep my family, you and I safe."
"That was my mindset at first. Then, I learned to have fun with it. Hannah hurt everyone, including me. If you want to know what happened, I sent the Dark Lord a letter, asked him if he could get me her. Here we are. Now, -- and I don't care whether you like it or not -- I'm going to kill her." I spat out in anger, saying it all out loud for the first time.
Draco's face screwed up and before he could reply, Snape had Apparated in front of what was Draco and I's heated argument.
He cleared his throat and I turned my head to face the greasy haired man in front of me.
"The Dark Lord wants to see you. Both of you." He said in his monotone voice.
I looked over at Draco to see that he was already staring back at me.
Whatever steam we had bubbling over us had died in that moment.
After a second of Draco nor I speaking up, he ordered. "Now."
I nodded, feeling a lump forming in my throat.
Draco followed behind me and Snape behind me.
"Snape?" I asked, not looking at the man and still walking towards Malfoy Manor. "What are we going in for?"
"I'm afraid I'm not permitted to tell you Miss Riddle. The Dark Lord would like to address this to you on his own." Snape replied.
I felt nerves arise in my abdomen and took deep breaths as I made my way up the stairs towards the front door.
I paused there, waiting for Draco and Snape to come up with me. Snape had now taken the lead and Draco and I stood side-by-side.
Snape pushed open the door and didn't wait for Draco and I as he headed fairly quickly towards the Dining Hall, his robe trailing far behind him.
Draco's heavy breaths were starting to catch up to me as we walked beside each other and towards the Dining Hall.
I couldn't help feel a strong anxiety.
What did my father want us for?
And only Draco and I?
Why not anyone else?
Snape had opened the door of the Dining Hall, ushering Draco and I in quickly.
He turned to his master, whom sat on his throne like chair and petting his long snake.
"I've gotten them, my Lord." He nodded.
"Thank you, Severus. You may leave." The Dark Lord said.
Nagini hissed in Parsletongue. "They're in trouble!"
The Dark Lord chuckled. "Why yes, Nagini. Yes, they are."
Draco had gulped, not knowing what the snake could've possibly told my father, making him react in such a menacing tone.
We stood there awkwardly for a moment before my father had stuck his long, scabbed hand out and glided it above the table. "Sit."
Not wanting to break any of his rules, we did as we were told. Whatever we did wrong, we didn't want to be cursed for it.
Draco had taken his normal seat, as did I. We now sat across the table from each other, waiting for my father's next instructions.
Instead, he rambled. "I had heard from Bellatrix that you have produced a quite successful rendition of the Cruciatus Curse? Is that correct?" He faced me, clearly asking me the question.
"Yes, my Lord. I have." I responded.
He wasn't getting to the point. I felt my stomach turn at the fact that I didn't know what Draco and I had done.
"Good, you need practice." He nodded, a frown edging on his smirking face.
"Yes, my Lord." I gulped.
"You're probably wondering why you're here. Aren't you? You're thinking 'The Dark Lord isn't one for petty small talk. What could he want?' Well, I'm here to tell you, I have found out something. Something about the both of you I find quite interesting. Do you know what that is?" My father told us, making my hands tremble.
I had started squeezing the both of my hands in my lap, trying to calm the nerves.
"No, my Lord." I lied, my voice shaking.
I now, had a pretty good idea of what he was going for.
But how could he know?
We were so careful.
"Draco," The Dark Lord addressed Draco head on. Draco's grey eyes, big and full of more fear than I have ever seen them. "Do you know?"
"N-no, my Lord." He stuttered.
It was extremely hard seeing Draco like this. In pure horror.
We glanced at each other so quickly, I was sure he didn't see.
"Yes, you do." My father chuckled and then his voice raised sternly. "And I do not tolerate lying!"
Draco and I had our heads raised, not daring to look the Dark Lord in his ugly snake-like eyes.
"You two-" The Dark Lord hissed. "-are dating."
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