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Chapter 97

[Harry]

 

When Marcel kissed Lucy I didn't move. I'm not sure how I didn't grab him by the neck and sent him to the moon or how I didn't use his face to clean the cement. The kiss probably lasted like two seconds because Lucy pushed him away but it was too late, I had seen it. I waited for Lucy to say something about it but she just opened the door and got into the house with Marcel.

The anger is flowing through me and in my mind I was almost killing him. This was another punch of the world against me. I have suffered all week and this whole night and now this happened.

I try to control myself and I need to remember that this is my fault; everything that happens now is my own fault. Now it's my turn to suffer and live in this constant torture of having Lucy away from me.

For a moment I could imagine the two together and it's the worst and most painful picture I've imagined this week. Lucy would be incredibly happy, Marcel would be good to her and he would never hurt her. They probably would argue but nothing serious. They would do many things together as study, play or go to competitions together. He is her best friend and she wouldn't have trouble communicating with him. I'm sure Lucy would marry him, Marcel would have a great job and he could give her everything she needed. Fuck Marcel the perfect cousin as the whole family thinks, and of course I'm the bad influence. It happens in the family and now it happens here. What if Lucy starts to like Marcel? I couldn’t take it.

I don't understand why she said nothing to Marcel. I wonder if she is trying to provoke me as she has done all night while she was with that group of people. I wanted her to be with me but I was replaced again. It's so painful to be replaced.

Now that Marcel knows what is happening he will probably talk shit about me. I already have Adam who must talk a lot of shit about me to Lucy. Then there are her friends. Damn, so many enemies. What if Lucy decides to reject me due to her friends' opinions?

All these people are an obstacle, a big black hole to me and I'm struggling but I'm beginning to doubt if I can catch Lucy. Maybe she won't be mine again and this is completely in vain but I don't want to give up. I don't want to stay away from Lucy, I know I don't deserve her love but I want to change the things.

I'm losing patience because Lucy is taking too long and I wonder what is happening. What if Marcel is talking to her? Maybe he is convinced her that I am a bad choice and mentioning every defect about me.

I heard the door and I looked up. Lucy is walking with her eyes on the floor. What is she thinking? Is she thinking about Marcel or about me?

"Why didn't you say anything about it?" I asked when she was in front of me.

"About what?"

"About Marcel, he just kissed you in front of me,” I furrowed my eyebrows.

"It was a mistake," she murmured without looking at me.

"What are you thinking? Do you like Marcel? "

"What? No, no. "

"He stole a kiss and it seems that you don't care. What if I steal you a kiss? You will probably be very upset. "

"It's different," she opened the door. "When it comes to us is very different."

Lucy climbed into the car and I rushed and did the same.

"Please, I just hope you're not provoking me," I said very frustrated.

"Why would I do that?" She frowned.