I Love You Idiot!

Chapter 5:) You can come to me

5

•••Haydens POV•••

" where is it? " I continued mumbling as I tore my trunk and carryon bag apart.

I had lost my book. My new book.

Ok it wasn't really new. It was actually my mums before she died.

And I'm not actually reading it.

I like her doodles. She has it so if you flip through them really fast it makes it look like it's moving.

Before school started Remus took me to my parents old house. I managed to steal a few things.

My fathers leather jacket

My mother's umbrella

An old teddy bear from when I was little.

And a couple of pictures of my parents and I before... you know.

And my mothers book. I had lost her book.

I had to find it.

There was a knock on the door.

" COME IN! " I shouted as I threw clothes on the floor.

The door opened and I heard a yell.

" careful there Hawkeye. " Cedric teased. I had hit him with one of my socks.

" sorry Ced " I responded.

He tossed the sock back to me.

" I believe I have something of yours. " he pulled it my book from behind his book. I sighed in relief and grabbed it from him.

" what would I do without you? " I breathed. He chuckled as I pulled him into a hug. " thank you so so so so much! I'm so happy I could kiss you! "

He chuckled and let go of me. It seemed like a forced chuckle.

" you okay Cedric? " I asked. He seemed a little uneasy.

" yeah yeah I'll be fine. " he said shaking it off. I set the book down on my bed and turned him to face me. I lifted his chin and grabbed his hands.

" hey. Whats wrong? " I asked, softly. He shook his head. " now don't give me that. I know there is something wrong. You can't lie to me Cedric "

" I'm not lying " he lied.

" your lying about lying " I sat down on my bed and pulled him to sit by me too. " What. Is. Wrong? "

" Hayden really it's- "

" don't say nothing " He avoided my look so I poked him " you're not leaving until I find out what's wrong. "

" well then I guess I'm never leaving. " he said crossing his arms. I glared at him.

" Cedric no middle name Diggory you tell me right now " I snapped. He chuckled.

" Hayden Regulus Black " he snapped back in a teasing tone. I punched him hard on the shoulder. " freak woman! That hurts "

" you know what hurts? My best friend won't tell me when something's wrong. " he had a sad look come on his face. " Cedric what's wrong? "

He was quiet for a moment. I could tell he was thinking.

" nothings wrong. I'll be fine. I promise. " he murmured after a minute.

" nope I'm not buying it. " I snapped. The door opened and in walked Angelina and Alicia. Angelina crawled in bed not saying anything while Alicia turned to us. I saw her smirk.

" head boy says everyone has to go to bed. " Alicia informed us. I nodded.

" thanks Lic " I said. She nodded and walked over to her bed. I turned back to Cedric and clutched his hand. " you're not leaving until I find out what's wrong. "

" Hayden nothings wrong. " Cedric lied.

" look me in the eyes and tell me nothings wrong " I told him. He sighed and looked me in the eyes. His brown eyes had a touch of honey in them. Like a sparkle.

" no- nothings wrong. " he spluttered. I tilted my head giving him the 'don't give me that bs' look.

" you're not leaving until you tell me what's wrong. " I snapped. He stared at me with a dry look.

" I've got to go Hayden " he mumbled standing up.

" no you'll get in trouble for being out after curfew " I countered. He shook his head.

" where am I supposed to sleep then " he asked. I patted my bed.

" right here " I climbed in my bed and scooted close to the wall. He sighed and climbed in with me. I turned to face him " Ced why won't you tell me what's wrong? "

" because I'll get over it. I don't need you worrying about me right now. You have plenty to worry about. "

" oh yeah. Him " him referring to my father. Cedric turned to face me. Our faces were about an inch apart.

" him " Cedric repeated. " have you heard from him? "

" no I haven't. I don't want to. I don't want to risk him getting caught. " I said. He rubbed my shoulder.

" I'm sorry " he told me. I nodded. " I really like how you think he's guilty but you still want to be with him "

" well he's my father. Everyone deserves a father. " Cedric nodded.

" you have Remus. " he pointed out. I shrugged.

" Remus isnt my father though. I love him but I just... yeah " I sighed. He nodded in response.

I felt him entwine his fingers with mine. It took me by surprise but it felt nice so I didn't rip my hand away.

" I'm sorry " Cedric whispered. I shrugged.

" it's all right. " I replied. We made eye contact. I saw him smile out of the corner of my eye. I kept a straight face.

" come here " I scooted closer to him and rested my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. He was really warm.

" Cedric I'm... " scared. I was scared to say scared. I had never been scared before in my life.

" it's okay. You can say it Hayden " he coaxed. I shook my head.

" What if- if the Dementors catch him? " I stuttered. " he may be guilty but he's still my father "

" I know. I know. " he soothed. He started running his fingers through my long brunette hair. " if they do catch him, then I am here to help you in any way I can. You have a lot of people here to help you Hayden. We all care for you and want you to be happy "

" you and Remus " I said obviously.

" Daphne, Harry, Fred, George, Lee, Dumbledore, Mcgonagall, Phillip, Dad, Remus, me. We'll all make sure you're safe. " I rolled away from him.

" I'm not worried about being safe. I'm worried about being an orphan " I grumbled. I heard him sigh.

" I'm sorry Hayden. I just- "

" I'm tired and going to sleep. Goodnight Cedric. I'll see you in the morning. " he sighed.

" goodnight Hayden. " he climbed out of my bed and left. I didn't argue.

I pretended to be asleep for who knows how long. I stared out my window wondering where my father was. And if he was safe. Why hadn't he come to get me? He thinks I don't want to be with him because he's guilty. I don't care if he's quilts or not. I just want my dad. After pretending to be asleep for a while I managed to actually fall asleep. If only it could've been dreamless.