I've met the Winchesters about a year and a half ago and we've really grew close. I have stayed in the bunker sometimes after movie night but nothing more. Sam and Dean both asked me to go live with them so I don't have to live in crappy motels but I refuse to be one more bargain to them. I also can't wake up and face Dean everyday. I don't know how he does it but everytime he walks im the room he makes me feel something that I've never felt before. And I have bo idea how to stop feeling this way about him. He is just a friend nothing more.
"Dean?" I call and he comes out of the kitchen "Good morning babe" he says and kisses me "What was that?" I ask "What do you mean? Can't I kiss my girl?" he asks and kisses me again. His hands were wrapped around my waist holding my body close to him. "I love you so much (Y/N)" he says "I love you too" I say and I kiss him.
My ringtone woke me up. "What the hell?" I whisper to myself thinking about what I have just dreamt. I take my phone from the nightstand and I answer "Yes?" "Hi (Y/N)..." as soon as I heard his voice again my heart started beating so fast "... Sammy and I are on Iowa for a case and it turns out to be bigger than we thought. Are you in?" he asks "Always, text me the details" I say and I hang up. I take a deep breath before taking my stuff and leaving the motel.
Dean's POV
"She's on her way" I say to Sam. "Can you text her the details?" I ask him "Sure" "Great, I'm going to go take a shower" I say and I go in the bathroom. I'm so happy to see her again. But why did she hang up so fast? Is she tired of us? Is she tired of me? No, she can't be. She has to stay. She has to know how I feel about her.
Your POV
While driving I got the text from Sam and then I started thinking about my dream again. What if that's what is going on? What if I'm in love with him? But I can't be. I mean I don't even know him that good. And he clearly isn't in love with me. He is not a guy that likes commitment. I have to fight this damn feeling.
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After a six-hour drive I parked next to the Impala and walked to their room. Sam opens the door and lets me in. "How are you guys?" I ask "Good. How are you?" "Good. Where is Dean?" "He went to bring some food. He should be back soon" "Ok". Sam started telling me about the case and more details on the whole vamp nest that we were against.
By the time we were done Dean came. As soon as I saw him this feeling kicked in again. But this time it was stronger. "Hi (Y/N). I missed you" he says and hugs me. Wow, this is better than that dream. What? No. Resist (Y/N). "I missed you guys too" I say and I pull away. "I should go get a room and get so sleep before we go out because I was driving all night" "No, you can totally crash here" Dean says "It's fine, I can go" "No stay please. We dragged you here and we shouldn't let you pay for another room just for a few hours sleep" he says "Ok" I say and I get my bag. "I'll change and I'll be right back". I went to the bathroom and got my pajamas on. Do I look good enough for Dean? What? Stop it brain.
I walk out of the bathroom and Dean's eyes immediately land on me. "Are you ok?" I ask him "Yeah, yeah, I'm just..." "Anyways, goodnight" I say not letting complete whatever he was going to say.
"(Y/N)!" I hear Dean call "Dean!" I shout too running his way. But a vampire punches me and throws me away from him. The other three that fight with him manages to pin him to the wall. I try to get up and go help him but it's too late. Two vampires hold him pinned to the wall while the other is already sucking his blood. I try to run to him but my vampire grabs me by my waist and picks me up. "Dean!" I yell but there is no response. His head is laying down. He is unconscious. Then the vampire takes a step back and Dean falls on the ground. His eyes are stuck open. The other vampire starts to walk away with my and I can't stop him. I'm, like, paralyzed. Dean is dead. Dean is gone. Dean is--
"(Y/N)!" I hear Dean yell and I wake up. I take a few breaths in order to calm down. "Are you ok?" he asks me "Yeah, I'm fine" I say " Are you sure? Because you were pretty upset and you were calling my name" I said I'm fine" I said and I go the bathroom.
I change my clothes and I go back out. "Can we talk?" Dean asks "I'm listening" I say while packing my things "I'm serious". I let out a breath and I turn to look at him "It's been a while actually since I wanted to tell you this but I didn't have the nerve to do it" "And you have or now?" "Are you gonna stop interrupting me?" he asks and I nod. "I--" he starts to say but the door interrupts him and Sam walks in. "Ready to go?" he asks "Yeah" I say and I go to the car.
The drive was extremely silent and awkward. I could feel Dean's gaze sometimes through the mirror but I didn't dare to look at him. Is love always that awkward?
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"I'm gonna head upstairs" Sam says "You two stay down here" he continues "No, we don't need to split" I say immediately "Why?" Dean asks "Nothing, forget it" I say and they both nod. Sam goes upstairs leaving me and Dean alone. We started to walk inside and killing every vampire that jumped up until three of them jumped out together. No... They all attack to Dean. I run to him but another one stops me. He throws me on the ground. The vampire just started to suck Dean's blood. I get up fast and knowing that he is still behind me I kill him. I run to Dean and I kill the one that was sucking him. The other two come to get me but I take a few steps back in order to give time to Dean to gain full conciseness.
I kill the one but the other was more skilled. He could fight back. I punch him in the face which made him more angry. He kicks me in the stomach, takes a knife from my back pocket and by the time I straighten up he pushed the knife in my upper abdomen. I gasp "That's for my family" he says as my body fell slightly on him. He twist the knife and I gasp again "And that's for every one of us that you've ever killed" he says and pulls the knife out. I fell immediately on the ground. Dean killed him and then came to me.
"Hey, hey, hey (Y/N)" he says shaking my head. I open my eyes and I look at him "You're gonna be ok, we are going to get you to the hospital and you are going to be fine" he says and puts pressure on my wound. "No, Dean" I say between sort breaths "That's it for me" I continue "No, don't say that" he says and gets ready to pick me up but I stop him "Wait, I... I got t-to say something t-to you" "We don't have time" "W-we do. Because I w-want you t-to know. Dean I--" but I start coughing and blood comes out of my mouth. Dean picks me up and I let out a groan. "Sammy!" he yells and Sam comes running. He tosse him the keys and sits in the back with me on his lap.
He takes my hand "Just hold my hand, ok? Hold my hand so I know you're here" he says and I nod. But it was getting really cold. "Sam, she is shaking. She is losing blood. She--" Dean starts saying. I've never again heard him so scared. "I'm driving as fast as I can" Sam says interrupting him.
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One week later
"I didn't agree coming here" I say as Dean helped me lay on the bed "I know but the doctor said that you should rest and have someone helping you so you are staying with us" he says. "I can do this my own" "Hey, if I have to I'm gonna chain you down on that bed" he says. But that would be so sexy. No, stop.
"I'll be back with some food. In the meantime you can watch something" he says handing me his laptop "Do you have anything else than porn in here?" I ask "Maybe" he says and gets out of the room.
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"Dean!" I yell and he comes running "What?" "I'm bored" I say and he chuckles. "How about we go for a ride?" he asks "It's better than nothing" I say. He picks me up and carries me to the car.
After a few minutes of driving he stopped at a lonely road. "Wait here" he says and gets out of the car. He takes a blanket from the backseat and places it on the ground, on top of the grass. He comes back and carries me there. "What is this?" I ask "This is the best place to relax. It has the best view of the stars and I'm hoping that I can relax from your grumpiness" he says and I chuckle. We both lay down.
I look at the sky and I realize that he is right. "It's beautiful out here" I say "I know" he says and then silent took over.
"Do you ever think of something more? Not marriage or whatever but... Something? To have a person that you love and loves you too, to have someone that you can't wait go back home to. At least another hunter, that gets the life?" I ask him but still looking at the sky. "I've thought of it but when people are around me they get hurt or worse. And I'm afraid that if I'm gonna let myself have feelings for anybody--" "You're scared that they will get hurt too" I say interrupting him "I know" I say looking at him. "People that do what we do, can't escape this life forever. I mean look at my mom..." he says and I look back at the sky. "You know there are going to be deaths but you never get used to losing people, right?" I ask "Exactly" he answers.
"I love you" I say still looking up "What?" Dean asks "I love you. That's what I wanted to say to you when I was dyi-- well, I thought I was dying". "(Y/N), look at me" he says and I do "I love you too" he says "You're not saying that just because--" "No. I say it because I mean it. And because I'm scared of losing you" he says and puts his hand on my cheek. He leans closer and I close my eyes. His lips finally connect with mines and I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest. He pulls away "You want to give this a try?" he asks "I really do" I say and he wraps his arm around me bringing me closer to him. "Then you have to get used to be introduced like my girlfriend" he says and I chuckle "I'm totally good with that".